The Naivete Breakaway

2011-03-17T02:27:00.002+08:00

When it comes to pass most things are just dead and gone and the summer morrows will never cease to fade.

MOMMA

2011-03-10T23:27:00.002+08:00

Gahh I can't really be bothered to post because i don't like my blog.
I mean look at it! It's kinda crappy.
BUT, neither can I be bothered to reskin it!!!
But if I do decide to dedicate some of my time to blogging, it'd probably be on a different platform.
Like maybe wordpress. Or tumblr!
Or myspace :/
Or facebook :0
Or just ask me directly what you wanna know about my life/day/interests instead of stalking me like a stalker! :P

2011-02-28T21:45:00.001+08:00

Down, dead.

The key that no longer fits

2011-02-13T18:01:00.000+08:00

The aftermath hurts

I know sorry's not enough...

2011-02-13T01:30:00.002+08:00

Today, I was going places.
But along the rows of shops at Tanjong Pagar MRT station, I noticed a note with a bible verse on it.

And it doesn't really seem like any version of the bible that I've seen before.
Maybe the person memorized the phrase wrongly.

But even though it looks like it was randomly placed there,
I somehow felt it was genuinely meant for me.

If you can't really make out the words, here's what it says:
(The words in brackets are the missing parts)

1 Corinthians 13:4-7
Love is patient, love is kind.
Love is not jealous or boastful, or proud or rude.
Love does not demand its way.
Love is not irritable, and it keeps no record of when it has been wronged.
[It is never glad about injustice but rejoices whenever the truth wins out.]
Love never gives up,
[never loses faith, is always hopeful, and endures through every circumstance.]

For that special someone, I'm sorry that I hurt you.
I'm not a perfect person, especially given what I said.
Please be happy. And despite what's going to happen, you're still my only one.
Smile :)

New Year!

2011-01-15T03:25:00.000+08:00

Well, i find that nowadays,
I have a LOT less to say!

But it looks retarded if i posted like, two paragraphs in a super big webpage :0
So here's a way smaller blogskin I took off BlogSkins.com and edited with the help of Everlyn!

It's quite simple, really.
But what I like most about this skin would be the button at the top right hand corner of the page
Well, don't just stare at it! Click it!!!
"OOOHHHH" right? Boohyah.

New Skin!

2011-01-15T02:36:00.000+08:00

NEW SKIN!!!

One year, six months

2010-07-18T00:02:00.001+08:00

Apparently, it's quite easy to post on the blogger.com site using my iPhone.
Minus the formatting though.
Today was awesome, went out to study with ticko,
Watched the band perform at IMM,(good job!)
Ate some ice-cream at swensons with Licheng, Yufei and KX,
Ate giant burgers after attempting to watch a movie,
And ended the day with random impromptu activities with Yufei, Kangxun, Nadd, Syaf and Yiwei.

It's really nice to have so much fun but at the same time,
it's sad cause sooner or later, you're not gonna be able to see these people,
Or have as much fun again when we all go our separate ways, lest the occasional pass-by.

Didn't choose this role, but I'll make it sincere. woof?

2010-07-16T22:40:00.007+08:00

Just so you know, this post is totally random and constitutes eating a double cheemburger or it's equivalent.
If I were to put it in terms of the "Three Musketeers and the douchebag",
It's MindBlasting!
But it also contains content that has been repeated in previous posts.
To love you, I can't
Recently, I've developed a fetish for paradoxes.
Now, if at this point you're wondering what a paradox is,
Just let me say that you should know what a paradox is.
To love you, I can't
For the ill-informed, a paradox is a true statement,
Or any group of statements that contradicts itself.
Still don't get it? Here's an example.
"The following sentence is true. The former sentence is false."
And you'll probably be like, ohhhhh.
To love you, I can't
Currently, my favorite is the "Liar" paradox.
Here's how it goes.
If a person said that he always lied, is he lying?
If his statement were to be true, then "always lying" would be the truth,
But if he was telling the truth about "always lying", then he must be lying about "always lying".
But if he was lying about "always lying", then he must be telling the truth.
And it brings us back to square one where we go in circles again and again.
To love you, I can't. It's a paradox.
However, other than serving to show off and/or helping your brain limber up before an exam, it's kinda useless as far as I can see.

Friday - Today, Day 2, Day 63, 16/07/10
Today was the second day since my class started playing the new game they adapted from a game show that airs on channel U at 5pm.
It's in hokkien, it's retarded, it's pervertic,
But even so, it's one of those things that you're gonna remember and love your class for,
Even after you've walked so many miles down life.

We might not have the best of class spirits,
Or even the diligence of other classes,
But we have great staying power.
And to me, that's the heart of 4C,
"Falling into memories of you and things we used to do."
Everything now's meant to be kept forever.

Please? I asked nicely

2010-07-14T22:19:00.001+08:00

Where is your composure, and where is your posture?

A little faith in a monster town wouldn't hurt anyone.

What the critics said that'll never happen,

Last year's wishes are these year's apologies.

A new face of failure perhaps, but not any better off.

We might have started singing a little soon, ending up throwing stones at a glass moon.

Need to have the best coach, telling the best jokes, needing to make it hard to look so easy.

Seasons change but people don't?

Well, maybe you should have considered looking at this with a new perspective.

Try using a little poise and rationality instead of sticking to your peach and lime daiquiri.

A dollar's a penny to you,

So give me envy, malice, maybe even your attention but not a break.

Change everything you are, standing on the rooftops, everybody sing your heart out.

Crazy lyrics, nice by themselves, but when you put them together, it simply sucks.

When you copy lyrics, you ruin songs!

Say no to piracy.

fail.

ALAYH

2010-07-13T22:13:00.001+08:00

Contrary to popular belief, I am desperately trying to change my ways.

Semper Fi

2010-07-12T22:47:00.007+08:00

I take it back, giving up is totally different from letting go.

And in case you're wondering why the lead singer pronounces some words really weirdly,
It's because Vanilla Sky is an Italian band.

A Thousand Miles - Vanilla Sky
(Originally by Vanessa Carlton)

Making my way downtown
Walking fast
Faces pass
And I'm home bound

Staring blankly ahead
Just making my way
Making my way
Into the crowd

And I need you
And I miss you
And now I wonder....

If I could fall
Into the sky
Do you think time
Would pass me by
Oh you know I'd walk
A thousand miles
If I could
Just see you
Tonight

It's always times like these
When I think of you
And I wonder
If you ever
Think of me

'Cause everything's so wrong
And I don't belong
Living in your
Precious memories

And I need you
And I miss you
And now I wonder....

If I could fall
Into the sky
Do you think time
Would pass me by
Oh you know I'd walk
A thousand miles
If I could
Just see you
Tonight

Don't want to let you know
Drown in your memory
Don't want to let this go
No I don't....

If I could fall
Into the sky
Do you think time
Would pass me by
'Cause you know I'd walk
A thousand miles
If I could
Just see you
If I could
Just hold you
Tonight.

Good to go but goin nowhere fast, Saturday, in the wake of

2010-07-10T23:59:00.000+08:00

Well, for once blogger's not screwing up on me when I'm trying to post.
Today, like everyone else in 4C/D/E, we had to attend a "motivational" workshop.
It was fun, though I wouldn't call it "motivational",
If you allowed me to use a phrase,
I'd say it'd be more like "Things to do to get what you want".

The purpose of the whole thing aside,
It's really nice to see the class all happy and united for once,
Doing crazy stuff without much of a point.
And 'cause we were so awesome,
We managed to get an equally awesome number,
For our total score which put us 2nd to nothing - "999"
Someone called the Police?

On a side note, I'd like to grandly thank my brother, I repeat -
My Brother (Phua Jia Qing aka. Chor Lor Sai)
For being oh so caring so as to give me an oh so "Completed" card to cheer me up when I'm feeling happy. Oh and ~~she~~ he was even considerate enough to even demand that I pay $5 for it.
Yeah, I know, my bro rocks.
And I'm not gay even though I'm his Sis.
Wonder how that happened 0.o

Anyway, here's that wonderul *cough* piece of art for everyone to "marvel" at.

Sacarsm Overload much?

Oh and bro, if you're reading this,

here's your five bucks --> [ ($5) ]

Copy it into notepad, load it into your phone, and present it at any participating stores to get a $5 rebate. Paticipating stores: None

IN YOUR FACE :D

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butterflies and hurricanes

2010-06-07T20:04:00.001+08:00

The Great Singapore Sale's finally here!
And us Secondary 4s are busy every weekday from morn till noon,
Toiling away in preparation of the coming GCE "O" Levels.
BooHoo.
Well, at least it's only a few more months of hard work till our "Investments" pay off.

But of course we won't be mugging all the while,
Nope, that'll require a feat of superhuman-ness,
We all need some time to recharge our batteries and do our shopping!
[Henceforth, the above totally contradicts itself, just ignore it and smile]

So, here's the first inclusion of my GSS wishlist on my blog which has totally no link to whatever i just said.

1. Skullcandy 50/50 earphones (black/chrome)

I really want this pair of earphones D:
But they're not in Singapore.
But if they were, I'd totally get them,
Why?
It has iPhone-supported volume controls and a microphone on it which,
Makes it a lot easier to use.

This blogpost is so epic fail.
But I really felt like posting anyway.

Never has something been so dangerously safe,
And these oxymora we have till date,
Every meaning and second that comes to pass,
Will startle and aonish those who wait

The Decadence effect.

2010-05-10T20:27:00.001+08:00

Sometimes during the day,
I'll go from really high to really low.
It's like I'm doing something and I get so caught up with it,
That I don't see the negativity of the stupid things I'm doing or the behavior that's being displayed
Then I suddenly remember my own standards,
What I want to be,
Who I want to be, Where do I want to go from here?
And then I compare these standards to what I did and the inside of me just writhes with disgust.

I know I'm not really describing this well but I'm not good with words.
I don't know what it's actually called.
To me, I only know this as a feeling of decadence,
A Decadence effect.
Defined in the free online dictionary
Decadence is the decay,
Degeneration, deterioration of morality or culture,
And/Or the state reached through such a process

It's pretty much what happens when I fail to meet my expectations of myself,
When I start to question, why am I acting like this, just what am I living for,
What is my purpose?
And I always wish I can be more self-conscious,
More self-aware to avoid doing all these stupid things.
And when I'm talking about stupid things,
I'm of course, talking about the random outbursts of idiocy from me.

In secondary 1 & 2,
I had this feeling a lot more, probably due to the sheer general immaturity of the class.
(Duh, we were all like, 13-14? No offence if you're reading this 1/2C-ians)
It got a lot better in Secondary 3,
After someone woke up what was apparently, only half my idea.

But right now, I feel like that horrible feeling tends to show up more often.

2010-05-08T17:28:00.000+08:00

If only that question were meant for me.

2010-05-06T19:51:00.000+08:00

Irritating.

The Takedown, The world, and my guitar.

2010-05-02T01:49:00.001+08:00

If you're reading this, don't.

Whenever I see you now,
I feel really down,
Because we went from "It's cool how we can start a conversation like that."
to "I just have nothing to say to you."
From a friendship of a measly five out of ten,
To a negligible zero.

I've never felt so strongly for someone before,
And I've never striven so hard for someone's affection.
I have never confessed my feelings to anyone,
And I've never felt so taken down over a single someone.
Perhaps my feelings are immature and ungrounded,
Maybe that's why I feel so easily hurt.

After Feburary Fourteenth,

I think you tried to keep things as normal as possible,

But this boy here didn't do much to help with maintaining the status quo,

And so things inevitably fell apart.

I suppose the reason why you're refusing to talk to me is to get me to do the following:

1) Get over it.

2) Focus on my studies.

3) Stop spending time and resources on you.

4) Stop getting hurt.

I'd really rather you didn't,

Especially since it kinda defeats it's own purpose.

You've only made me think more about it if anything.

I'd much rather go back one step.

But of course, the best,

To me, is to go back to square four,

When everyone was happy.

I used to want you as more than a friend,

But right now, all I want is normalcy,

For whatever that's making everything so awkward be gone.

That it'll be okay to typer hyper messages again.
But the thing that's making everything awkward,
Is me.

2010-04-11T20:59:00.002+08:00

Yesterday, was the Singapore Youth Festival 2010

2010-03-31T22:14:00.000+08:00

I'm sorry for being so fickle.
At times, I want to let go, yet other times I can't.
There's just no one like you.

The kill.

2010-03-29T20:11:00.001+08:00

Hey people, I'm much better now.
All of you really cheered me up in each of your small ways.
I really want to thank you all for that,
I would list out all of your names here,
In bold and in 34pixel font sizes but I wouldn't want to miss out anyone.
So by not personally thanking everyone,
It's much fairer, I suppose...
(And easier for me! :P)

Anyway,
The main purpose of this post is,
To prevent Clement Tan from Re-reading and re-reading and re-reading (Again),
The previous emo-almost F-A-I-L but- not fail- f-ed up- imba post,
Just so that he can point a finger in my face and say "haha!"
:|
He needs a life and something better to do, sigh.

And here are the updates on my life.
12 days to Band SYF, 10/4/10
I need a haircut.
My shoes are in a state of perpetual discoloration due to the mud no matter how much I kiwi them,
(Yes, kiwi, my canvas shoe.)
I like milk even more than before!
I'll be removing the first (4) stitches I've ever had in my life,
From my thumb this Wednesday.
I can officially go back to strenuous exercises, as per normal,
As of today.
And I've spent about $20 on someone's...

And that's about everything I had to say.
Thank you for reading!

My life with...

2010-03-26T20:28:00.007+08:00

These are my thoughts,
Random and unorganized.

I once saw this all as a story,

About heroes and crooks,

Where one saves you while another steals you away.

Where all sure things fall.

Today, I finally broke down towards the end of the motivational workshop,

Everything I've held back in these 2.5 years finally finding their way out.

Thank goodness Roy and Clement were good enough,

To bring me to the washroom to cry my heart out.

So much agony I've been keeping in.

I started to crack earlier this week,

No, rather, earlier this year when you were more attached to another "him".

And the final straws were seeing you cling so much to him the last few days,

And particularly today.

To the same hero who had once talked to me about my feelings towards you.

I feel, obviously, hurt, abandoned and betrayed.

How am I supposed to react anyway?

I can't let you go, I've tried for the almost entirety of last year,

Including trying to ignore you and telling myself that I prefer someone else but to no avail.

This year I gave up on that and decided to simply tell my feelings towards you.

Not that I think you really cared anyway, not from what I feel now.

I've always felt extremely jealous whenever you ran off,

To talk to someone other guy way far off when I'm just here waiting for a conversation.

Even a simple "Hi!" would do.

Yes, I know that's being selfish, but you know how that feels right?

It hurts, it's lonely, it's emptying.

I've always told myself I should be happy if you're happy,

Like what you once texted me, I can almost remember by heart now,

"... But what I'm trying to say is,

If you like a girl, you'd want her to be happy right?

So please, let the girl live in peace, stop irritating her and her friends.

Don't reply to this message."

And I have no idea which friend of yours I irritated back then.

The situation seemed rather similar to today's too,

Except you haven't said anything to me, yet.

I don't even know if you care that I cried or anything.

You're just too preoccupied with all your work right?

I felt a bit better when I saw your social updates,

~~Maybe, just maybe, you cared.~~
But after thinking again, I doubt they're about me.

Every night, I ask myself the same question,

"Why always someone else but not me?"

I understand that I completely sucked two years ago,

But after that I tried my best to change, to be the best I can be.

I studied my ass off despite being habitually lazy,

To try and impress you too.

When you feel down, I try to cheer you up.

I know I've never helped you when you were lonely,

But I was afraid you wouldn't want me to be the one to accompany you.

Apparently I'm right anyway.

Everything I tried to do that all comes to naught.

I'm just the man on the balcony.

No one will ever remember me.

On Wednesday,

In my frustration over this issue,

I smashed a glass vase which lacerated my thumb which is why it's like that.

Given how cold I feel now, the thought of that warmth dripping from my hand seems comforting.

Enveloping, engulfing, thermally energetic.

But of course I'd never act on such thoughts.

-I'm childish with all these kinds of things that regard the heart.-

I have this hole right here,

I only knew how to fill it with you.

Roy says I should find other things to fill it up with,

But the hole itself seems to cry out for you.

I don't know what I need,

I don't know what I should want,

I don't know what to do

After crying and being comforted by Roy,
I feel better, but not by much.
Reality is still what it is.
But in the meantime while I decide on my reaction.
I'll be side one, with side five on the outside.
Side one was never happiness, unlike what I told everyone.
Side one is my hopelessness towards you.

If you ever read this, please talk to me about this.
I need somewhere to go from here, and I want to know my hurts.

December, remember

2010-03-25T20:59:00.000+08:00

So what am I supposed to do?
I'm expecting you to tell me.

2010-03-14T13:47:00.001+08:00

Bump, again

Fast Times at Barrington high

2010-03-12T23:13:00.005+08:00

Finally I've submitted all of the files,
I owe my teachers except for my physics file.
I'd have handed it in if not for the fact that,
I didn't finish and mark several worksheets,
Which I didn't bring to school,
On the days that Mr Prakash went through the questions in class.
Me and my "Assumptions".

After band, Ah Mui, Zi Yu and I had to go and help out with the,
"Meet the parents" sessions, whatever it's called,
As Ushers, directing the parents accompanied by their children to the correct teacher,
Awkwardly passing them bottles of West Spring Mineral Water,
Which would be received by the parents who would probably be pulling a long face.
It's really disturbing how they openly display their displeasure with their children with having to meet their teachers.

Anyway, the idea of being in school at night is really appealing to me,
It's such a novelty.
At 8:30, the sky was completely dark and the lit classrooms looked like lanterns.
A really great way to see the school in a different light, literally.
Aside from the different perspective that we get of the school grounds,
It's also a great chance to do crazy and stupid things while enjoying the cool night air.

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About a Girl - The Academy is...

One song about a girl.
Can't breathe when I'm around her.
I wait here everyday,
In case she'll scratch the surface.
She'll never notice...

I'm not in love,
This is not my heart.
I'm not gonna waste these words,
About a girl.

Last night, I knew what to say,
But you weren't there to hear it.
These lines, so well rehearsed,
Tongue-tied and overloaded.
You never notice.

I'm not in love.
This is not my heart,
I'm not gonna waste these words,
About a girl.

I'm not in love,
This is not your song,
I'm not gonna waste these words,
About a girl.

To be loved, to be loved,
What more could you ask for?
To be loved, to be loved,
Everyone wants to be loved, to be loved,
What more could you ask for?
To be loved, to be loved,
Everyone,

I'm not in love.
This is not my heart.
I'm not gonna waste these words.

I'm not in love,
This is not my heart,
I'm not gonna waste these words,
About a girl.

I'm not in love, (To be loved, to be loved, what more could you ask for?)
This is not your song, (To be loved, to be loved, everyone)
I'm not gonna waste these words, (wants to be loved, to be loved)
About a girl.

Due to the overprotection of copyright laws, this video is not awesome-er.
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There's a reason why I like this song.

It's the first song where I played the drums for a performance/skit.

And it's also how I'd like to feel but can't

2010-03-06T22:49:00.002+08:00

I wish I wasn't me.

The day where I can say, "there's no tomorrow".

2010-03-05T23:05:00.000+08:00

Ever felt like this?

Imagine yourself.

You're wishing that you could just get over with something.

But once it passes, you change your perspective and wish it wasn't over,

Just like how the pitch of a car's engine changes,

As the car gets closer to you and passes by you.

Doesn't it just suck?

Often we never see the goodness in something until it's too late.

Often, we'll never be able to appreciate that goodness again while it's happening.

And just when you think you'll never let something like that happen again,

The whole cycle repeats, your chance falling out of your reach

There's a lot of things that, when I look back,

I regret not enjoying it to the fullest while I was in the midst of it.

-------

Today we had band,

What's new?

It's the same old story,

We have a finite number of days till our competition,

Every single one of these days precious and needing to be properly used.

Yet, every 24 hours passes so easily just like water running down a stream.

Every 24 hours/ 1,440 minutes/ 86,400 seconds, like what Mr Anthony said,

Is a day closer to the day where we can say "there is no tomorrow."

Not literally that the sun won't rise on the next day,

But rather, there won't be another chance in our lifetimes,
To go through this experience we're having now,
Whether it be good, or bad.

2010-02-21T18:43:00.001+08:00

Bump.

The truth hurts worse than anything.

2010-02-21T18:24:00.001+08:00

~~I'm trying to study harder,~~
~~For my Common Test, for my "O" levels.~~
~~But I can't study harder, I can't concentrate.~~

~~I can't concentrate, I've lost my motivation to do well.~~
~~I've lost my motivation to do well, and my motivation to do well was you.~~
~~I lost my motivation to do well for you when I lost you.~~
~~I lost you when I finally accepted that you don't like me the way I do.~~

And yet somehow I always feel so lonely.

2010-02-17T00:45:00.001+08:00

Two nights ago, on the 15th of February 7:50 pm during our reunion dinner,
My paternal Great Grandfather was pronounced dead.

Right now, my emotions are like "Rojak".
I suppose I shouldn't be sad for him, he died the way he wanted to,
With his dignity, at home instead of in a hospital and in the company of the people he loves.
But at the same time, I regret.
I regret not knowing him better,
Even though I couldn't possibly do so because of language barriers.
I regret not doing more,
Not making cards for his birthday, not giving him any presents.

And besides the feelings toward those who have moved on to better things,
There's also the feelings that make us uneasy about our fragile lives.
Time really flies by, now i'm 15,
Turning 16 which is already about 1/8th of an average human lifespan.
Just how fast am I going to age and die?
There's also the question of what I'm going to do with my life.

Although I don't have any plans,
The thing I'm the most scared of right now is playing the wrong cards
and ending up stuck in a mindless job that I don't even like.
To me, one of the worst things that can happen to a person
is being unable to realise their dreams.

Tomorrow's the funeral/cremation.
This whole thing is supposed to be a really short affair.
My Great Grandfather didn't want to trouble anyone by having something longer anyway.
After tomorrow, I'd have been to a funeral twice.
One for an unborn baby, the other for an elderly man.
The Alpha and Omega. The beginning and the end.

You need him and I'm nothing but an accident.

2010-02-08T20:30:00.007+08:00

From Wikipedia.

"The video depicts lead singer Patrick Stump alone at sea trying to find his way home.
Throughout most of the video he is fishing, reading in his cabin,
playing the piano and suffering from loneliness.

Eventually, he finds a seagull trapped in ropes on his ship.
He frees and befriends the bird and so the two set sail together and Patrick is no longer lonely.
Towards the end of the video,
Patrick stops to fish again,
but finds strange objects such as deer antlers (from Antler Boy in "Sugar, We're Going Down"),
a black and white striped jacket (the jacket Patrick wore in "Dance, Dance"),
and a bass drum (one of Andy Hurley's drums).
Finally, he comes across a sign featuring the letters F, O, and B (the sign from "Thnks fr th Mmrs").
He then looks up and spots a sinking ship.

He immediately turns the boat around to rescue the survivors on the lifeboats
(who include Joe Trohman, Andy Hurley, Spencer Smith, Brendon Urie, Tony Chaw and everyone else who has worked with Fall Out Boy over the past few years).

Once all of the survivors are on the boat,
Patrick looks back at the sinking ship and spots Pete Wentz who is sinking along with his vessel.
Pete salutes a "Thank you!" to Patrick and goes down with the ship.
Now with plenty of people and getting closer to shore,
Patrick then sets free his Seagull friend and watches him fly off with his family into the coast."

Ms Flak said "I still want you back",
I've got troubled thoughts and the self-esteem to match.
Oh what a catch,
What-a-catch.

Followed by.

"From now on, we are enemies."

'I just want to be better than your head's only medicine'
A downward spiral just a pirouette
Getting worse til there's nothing left
What good comes of something when I'm just the ghost of nothing?

'I'm just the man on the balcony singing':
"Nobody will ever remember me,"
Rejoice, rejoice and fall to your knees

Lunatic of a god or a god of a lunatic?
Oh, their faces are dancing
They're dancing til,
Til they can't stand it.

A composer but never composed
Singing the symphonies of the overdosed
A composer but never composed

Singing, "I only want what I can't have"
'Heralded as a king before I had a birthday,
With double digits.
Fit the crown to my head but I was only a kid'
'I'm just the man on the balcony singing;
"Nobody will ever remember me,"
Rejoice, rejoice and fall to your knees.

Lunatic of a god or a god of a lunatic?
Oh, their faces are dancing,
They're dancing til,
Til they can't stand it.

A composer but never composed,
Singing the symphonies of the overdosed,
A composer but never composed.

Singing; "I only want what I can't have"
'I just want to be better than your head's only medicine'
'I'm just the man on the balcony singing':
"Nobody will ever remember me,"
Rejoice, rejoice and fall to your knees
Lunatic of a god or a god of a lunatic?

Oh, their faces are dancing,
They're dancing til,
Til they can't stand it.

A composer but never composed
Singing the symphonies of the overdosed
A composer but never composed

Singing; "I only want what I can't have"

From now on we are enemies.

2010-02-06T23:17:00.001+08:00

Sometimes I really hate myself.
Sometimes I really hate myself.

Sometimes I really hate myself.

Sometimes.

I'm jealous of anyone you talk to.

2010-02-04T22:12:00.000+08:00

I really should get started on my Social Studies essay,

Instead of blogging.

But either way, I don't think I'd make much progress with blogging undone,

So I think I'd blog before continuing with my essay so that I don't get distracted.

The topic.

And that's what I'm gonna talk about.

Like seriously,

I really doubt they'd want to get together again.

So yeah, there goes another one of my favorite alternative bands.

The first to go was Yellowcard,

They took a break while their lead singer/guitarist started a side project called "Big if".

And the next up is..

Fall Out Boy.

Following this recent announcement,

This one year hiatus will probably become an eternal one.

The worst part is that I've,

Never been to either Yellowcard's or Fall Out Boy's concerts.

And it's especially bummer-ful since I was like;

"Nah, maybe next time, they'll be back." when FOB came to Singapore last year.

Okay, now back to Essay writing.

Thanks for reading!

2010-02-02T21:06:00.001+08:00

Okay, back to my normal self.

To me, your ends are my means for my ends. And I'm sorry for it.

2010-02-01T21:31:00.000+08:00

Even though I quite enjoy grouping,

I quite dislike it at the same time too.

Contradicting eh?

The thing is, everytime we (the class),

Has to separate themselves for group work

Like today's PE lesson where we practiced softball.

I always feel that I'm out of place,

Like I don't belong.

I usually join up with Haziq and Clement, maybe Justin or Nicholas

And whoever else's near my table or where I'm standing.

I don't think I belong to any particular clique,

I'm just a 2nd degree mutual friend of everyone and anyone.

Not really any much closer to anyone than any other person.

I'm definitely sure that it's not the people in the class,

Though annoying at times, they're still rather great people.

It's more like I never really met any one group of people or person that I could really click with,

People who share the same interests,

The same philosophy, the same school of thought,

The same music, the same everything.

Whenever I'm in a group or something similar,

I end up "trying too hard".

Ever seen me laughing oddly, awkwardly, for a long period or at a bad time?

Yep, that's me trying too hard to feel accepted.

It's not like I'm doing it on purpose.

I think I developed this bad habit when I was in primary school.

People from BPPS like Charmaine Soh would probably know what I mean.

Or maybe not.

Anyway, it's a vicious cycle.

Feeling out of place -> Laughing oddly ->
Feeling more out of place -> More laughing oddly.

So on & so forth.

No matter where, when, why.

It's all the same.

Church, School, Band, Robotics, Z2H Season 4, Z2H Alumni.

I've never really felt like I've belonged anywhere.

And of course this post will probably spontaneously

Cause some Idiot who's reading to go,

"Haha, you suck, no friends and no life. Super weird posts and behavior. Nerd."

(Or something like that, I was never good at insulting people, including myself.)

But honestly, I don't care, at least that's what I'm trying to imply.

If I did I wouldn't have posted this in the first place. Duh.

I'm sad, but there's a reason for it.

And now you know.

Thank you for taking the time to read through my rubbish.

Ignore this post if it has offended you,

I take it back and retract whatever pissed you off.

Only until then.

2010-01-31T23:13:00.001+08:00

Yes, I know that my "O" levels are this year.

I do try to study.

But then again I just can't get to it.

So far my "Studying" is only limited to doing,

My school homework and maybe tuition homework.

Anyway, today I had my usual chemistry tuition.

And after that I went to west mall to do my homework.

So yeah, I finished all of my homework!

(Or at least all that I'm aware of...)

But as to going out just to do my work...

It sounds stupid right?

But either way, I still do my work more efficiently outside than at home.

I'm like still having trouble grasping the reality that this year I'm in secondary 4.

Like seriously, everything seems to be flying by too fast.

I seriously want to hit a pause button and relax as much as I want,

before burying myself alive in life's worries again.

But as much as life's such a "Rojak" of shitty-ness and whatnot.

There's always things that you can't help to notice and appreciate.

For example,

My phone has a new screen protector.

(It's all matte and non-fingerprint-magnet-ish!)

And that's all that matters to my shallow materilistic self.

At least till I get my ass started on real studying.

Finally, once again, I have succeeded in talking about only me, myself and I.

Yep, I'm "definitely" not full of myself.

Here we go again.

2010-01-24T23:22:00.002+08:00

Well, recently I haven't been posting because,
Recently, I've been busy.
This concludes my post.

2010-01-19T23:24:00.001+08:00

Okay...
Like I was reading through the blogs of some of my friends and apparently,
Everyone decided to post today.
So here, a toast to conformity towards society,
My post,
By this here Evan Chong Tze Kai,
Enjoy.

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Today's half day was pretty nice I guess

First of all, we had chemistry practical.
Okay, maybe it's not like, the most exciting thing in the world.
But hey, at least it's better than staying in class and falling half-asleep,
While your teacher drones on and on and on.
And do you know what's worse?
His extra drone since said teacher repeats everything he says 3 times.
But, I admit, he does know his stuff.

Titration, of all the experiments that we could possible do at Secondary 4,
Is probably the most "lay-chay" to do.
You'd probably kill yourself over trying to get accurate readings and,
There's just so many things to take note of,
If not you'll lose points for your SPA.
(Sounds like Band SYF lol.)

Oh and just for today, we did our experiments with a lab partner.
I joined up with Ms "OMG! I poured exactly 10CM^3 of HCL in one go okay!"
As the creative minds we were,
We spiced up our experiments.

Where others drew plain, boring old "X"s.
We set a new standard by incorporating a "XD" face into our experiment.
Not only does it have a larger surface area of black to make for an easier visual,
It serves for comedic purposes too.

But despite being the geniuses we are,
The top 2 people for last year's end-of-years in our class,
We ended up waiting like idiots for our last round of reactants to finish reacting.
And so we waited... and waited...
Until, "Eh, I think it's done, but it's too dilute to see."
Bwang I tell you, we really ended up "XD"-ing.

Oh and after school, we had band.
(Duh)

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Will finish up tomorrow.
Come back soon.

I'm glad my standard of English isn't that bad.

2010-01-10T02:07:00.001+08:00

~~Today~~ Yesterday was really great,
Yes, it may have been a weekend where I,
Might have spent my time somewhere else,
Having other kinds of fun instead of going for Band practice straight after my drum lessons.
Unfortunately, I'm an enthuastic band member.
Anyway we managed to do quite a couple of things.
While not having Quality, we had Quantity.

I'm really loving the song "When Eagles Soar",
And the fact that us Percussionists will get to decide on our own drum-solo.
But I hate it that the header for "When Eagles Soar" has a grammar mistake,
Displaying "When Eagle Soar" instead,
(I really want to cross it out and write the correct headings above it)
Plus our lack of good ideas (and maybe skills),
To exploit this delicious opportunity to Show-Off our drumming.

Anyway, after band we had a really great time going for dinner and having dinner.
I even had some sort of "Chinese/ Singlish/ Hokkien/ Science Lessons".
Have you ever heard a pig in real life go "Oink?"
Did you know that Crabs eat shit?
Did you know a synonym of "Chor Lor" is someone in my section?
Lol

It'll be good times like this that we'll remember when we grow up,
Face the crap that's known as "Working Life"
And finally become independent.

01010100 01101111 01100100 01100001 01111001, Today, Honjitsu, Simera, Sodien.

2010-01-08T21:25:00.004+08:00

Thank goodness it's Friday,
This week was really a hectic affair,
Especially since I didn't finish up my English homework.
The stuff pretty much kept piling up,
Anyway I have like, 27 more newspaper articles,
6 picture discussions and 1 comprehension to redo.

Today and the day before was another day where the school was,
So kind as to fetch the willing parties to two of all the Polytechnic Open houses.
Anyway I didn't go for any of them.
Was tied up with stuff of sorts.
But even if I went,
I don't think it'd help in making a decision of where to go after "O" levels.

I mean, the choices keep branching out.
Like Polytechnic or Junior College,
And after that I'd have to decide on which of the Polys/JCs to go to.
Followed by what course/subject,
Plus,
At the same time you'll have to think in terms of what to do after going into that.

I'm really afraid of screwing up my life.
And I think that dying without achieving a dream is something really horrible.
The thing is, I really don't know what to do,
Don't where to go.

They always say that you should set your mind on something and plan towards that.
But without my destination,
I'm like a wandering plane with nowhere to land.
But if I don't land,
I'll run out of fuel, crash and burn.

Of course,
I'm not saying I'm the only person with this problem,
But eitherway it still feels better to talk about it,
Or rather, post.

Right now, people around me know very clearly what they're gonna do.
And I'm getting left behind in their dust,
It hurts whenever I feel like that.
But then again, SP has it's own Jamming Studio...

Edit in response to "Passerby"
And Ngee Ann has it's own Jamming Studio too....

A to Z, Alpha to Omega

2010-01-08T19:18:00.001+08:00

Not here, not now.

Unos Duos Thres Quatros five six seven eight.

2010-01-06T22:57:00.001+08:00

Like Oh-Em-Gee,
I have awesome foresight.
"Being the best I can be" has long been my motto,
Even before Mr Seet had ever thought of it.

But then again,

Perhaps it's like what Haziq told me.

Maybe he read my blog on Sunday.

In that case I'll only have two words to say.

"Unoriginal" and "Poser"

Sigh, I should have Copyrighted/ Patented the pants out of it,
Maybe sue him, get some cash.
Ka-ching!
For once I'll be really happy with the MDA for their copyright-kiasu-ness.
(I'm still legalizing my music-library, it's seriously time consuming)
However, the school might end up with even lesser money,
Bad idea on second thought,
Wouldn't want to be made to do more manual labour on the pretext of "C.I.P."

Oh and another random thing to rant about.
How come two people who found $10 this year were given credit for it wherelse,
ME, who found $30 dollars last year, was totally unmentioned.
Tsk, it's communism I tell you,
The school with their hair checks and their uniform-whiteness and their "Ladies and Gentlemen" and their disallowal of handphones and their "DO YOUR HOMEWORK OR DIEEEEE!!"

It's probably some conspiracy to produce energy,
For the country, by absorbing our life-forces while we're in class.
Like duh, that's why we always feel so "Sian" in school.
"Then why do they give us holidays then?"
Like, of course they have to give us a break.
Who uses a car for their entire 10-year COE duration at one go?
Better not overheat the "engines".
Like seriously, use your brain!
(Obviously I'm joking, you'd know unless you weren't using your brain,
Wsss is really great despite some of the negative-true stuff said)

Hmm, I'm hyper today.
Thanks for reading!

Mixed emotions, and thoughts.

2010-01-03T20:58:00.000+08:00

Yesterday, I really enjoyed my Church's service.
Ok, this doesn't really concern my audience but I just wanted to say it.
I love how it sounds so mainstream,
And oh, the lights, I just love them.
It's like a concert,
Just the way I like it with guitars leading instead of the keyboards.

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The Kedah trip was really fun despite what I expected.
Yes, it could have be better, like anything can be,
And I could have Not have had a Nightmare,
But what it was, was enough for me.
We shopped, made friends, re-made friends,
Learned new stuff,
And found new people to play, and dance with.
Honestly, I really didn't want to leave on the last day.

And with this first post of the new year,
I shall talk about how much I dread school tomorrow.

OMG, School.
Xian, monday blues, homework,
Studying, pessimism.
None of which we love,
But still, we don't really have much of a choice right?
And it's like some crazy endless cycle.

Level 1- Kindergarden
Level 2- Primary School
Level 3- Secondary School
Level 4- Junior Colleage / Polytechnic
Level 5- University/ Working Life/ NS
And Et cetera till we die.

In that case, what do we live for?
And no, I'm not suicidal or anything,
I'm just stating what most of us have probably ever thought in our lives.
But, as a result of this, most of us try to find a purpose for our existence,
Something to fill this hole in our questions.

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This year,
I'm aiming to be the best I can be.

Same day, 2 years ago. Taken forgranted.

2009-12-21T18:31:00.002+08:00

Today,
I was reminded of a school of
thought that I once came up with.

Here's what it is.
Honestly, no one that is non-influential can make a difference.
But, 36 people who can't make a difference, can make a difference.

In addition to that random thought,
Here's a random statement.
I'm a horrible horrible person.

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Mary's alive in the bright New York sky.

2009-12-17T01:18:00.005+08:00

I think I've been having a bit of mood swings lately....
*A.S.*
Yes, I am guy if you were wondering,
Anyway it's not like it's those kind of super influential types,
It's all in my head.
With that random statement aside,
Let me begin my post.

First up,
Nope, I haven't done my camp reflection,
As much as I would like to get it done with,
I'm seriously too lazy to even start.
And yet I'm here blogging.
Oh the Irony.

Number Two,
I spent today's morning,
At the band Exco's formation discussion meeting.
I kinda got into this state of "Useless slob of meat"-level stoning.
Did not help them at all period.
Which makes something new to add to my points for self-improvement.
"When someone asks you to help with something, Help."

Following the meeting I didn't feel like going,
To play at a LAN shop again with my juniors.
Instead I went to Choa Chu Kang,
(Met Charmaine and Wei Ting and Justin on the way)
To buy my Pepper Lunch Express,
And then went to Yu Fei's house to do,
Random things with him and Ticko.

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And here's another song that I like.

Gifts and Curses - Yellowcard
Inspired by Spiderman 2.
Mary's a word in a song.

Mary belongs to the words of a song.
I try to be strong for her, try not to be wrong for her.
But she will not wait for me, anymore, anymore.
Why did I say all those things before I was sure?

She is the one, but I have a purpose,
She is the one, and I have to fight this,
She is the one, a villian I can't knock down.

I see your face with every punch I take,
And every bone I break, it's all for you.
And my worst pains are words I cannot say,
Still I will always fight on for you.

Mary's alive in the bright New York sky,
The city lights shine for her, above them I cry for her.
Everything's small on the ground below, down below.
What if I fall, then where would I go, would she know?

She is the one, all that I wanted,
She is the one, and I will be haunted,
She is the one, this gift is my curse for now.

I see your face with every punch I take,
And every bone I break, it's all for you.
And my worst pains are words I cannot say,
Still I will always fight on for you.
Fight on for you.

It's only Califrangilisticexpialidocious without you.

2009-12-16T01:14:00.001+08:00

Part 2

Three days ago was Ms Koh's fabulous wedding.
Following our walk out from the fort canning area,
Some of us went our separate ways but about 16 of us remained.
These 16 of us almost went to play at the Lan shop at the Douby Gaut station,
Thankfully all the computers there were taken up,
Meaning my eyes won't suffer anymore damage,
From these recent weeks of gaming.

Anyway, we were in quite a stitch over what to do.
Thankfully, we figured something out;
We would takeaway whatever we wanted to eat,
And sit in a random corner to eat as a group.
Genius.

And so, we sat down with our stuff,
Got chased away by a security guard,
And moved to a corner next to some vending machines.
And so we ate.
And then we got bored.
And so Bernard suggested we have,
A gift exchange with a budget of 2 bucks.
And so we mixed up our names on slips of papers,
To decide who I'd buy my gift for.
And so, I'm buying my gift for **********

After our little supper, more of us left,
Leaving a final quota of like,
8 people I believe.
And so us 8 people went to Geraldine's house,
Watched some random videos.

And the best part's coming, just wait for it.
So we finally left at about 11:30,
But my curfew was at 10:30.
When I got home at 12:08:21 I practically died,
My dad scolded me and grounded me.
If you were wondering,
Yes I cried.

But now that I think about it,
He didn't like really ground me,
He just brought my curfew forward to 7:30.
But having said that, if I break this curfew again,
He won't let me go for the Kedah trip.
Now isn't that great?

Anyway, looking back,
Those Southpark videos we watched weren't really worth watching.
Yes I did laugh at the time,
But I still think Spongebob Squarepants is funnier.

I really don't know what I want from you anymore

2009-12-13T21:48:00.001+08:00

Part 1

Yesterday was Ms Chan's fabulous wedding.
(or should I say Mrs Koh's)
I'd have posted this earlier if not for my computer deciding to disable it's internet.
Anyway, it was a really fun day all in all.

That Saturday morning I woke up at 8:30am,
And like, I have no idea why,
I set my alarm for 10:50.
Eitherway I got up and prepared for the wedding.

Left home at about 12 to go to Macdonald's to meet
Jin Teng, Syafiq, Clement, Ryan, Geraldine and Sean.
Alfred was supposed to join us on the bus ride there,
While Bernard would join us for buying a present.
But we ended up leaving poor Alfred at the bus stop,
Outside his house for 1 hour because we all took so long to board bus 190.

Anyway, following the bus ride to Far East Plaza,
Where we went to buy Ms Chan's present because there was a 30% off Christmas sale
We joined Bernard to buy our shared gift.
Honestly, we had no idea what to get,
So we just picked some random book on marriage which had a nice cover.
Hopefully Ms Chan will like it.

Also in our gift we included a really really nice card...
Which we messed up with our horrible handwriting and bad well-wishes.
Well, not so much for me though,
I gave a poetic;
"May you find happiness in this new chapter of your life"
Pwnage.

Anyway we (Syafiq),
Decided to walk there from Far East Plaza since it was like,
"A very short walk there",
Thank goodness I expected something like that and wore a t-shirt inside my shirt.
Muhahahaha.
My comfort aside,
We still didn't make it to the wedding in time,
But fortunately the actual thing only started at 4,
Instead of the stated 3:45 in your invitation cards.

The whole wedding took just about a hour,
In that quaint little classic church,
And the highest part of the wedding, for me,
Would be hearing the song that Ms Chan and her husband composed.
It's kinda sad how we'll probably never hear that song again.

Following the wedding we had our buffet,
Mingled with the other people we knew there.
After meeting up with the other 3C-ians and taking photos,
We all went off together to find stuff to do,
Playing the "Penis" game on the way.

You're now just a line in a song....

2009-12-04T14:42:00.004+08:00

Hey people,
I'm showing off another song today.
Lights and Sounds by Yellowcard is my new favorite song [again].

I liked it when I first heard it from Burnout Revenge on the Xbox 360,
But then, after a while, I totally forgot about it.
That is, until this year when I heard,
Recording 13 play it on one of their jamming sessions.
And so, I heard it, loved how it sounded live,
Forgot it, and now I remember it again.
Anyway, it's a nice little fast paced song with rather non-repetitive lyrics,
Unfortunately....
I can't embed the song in any way.
So here's the link to youtube!
Lights and Sounds
And the Lyrics.

Lights and Sounds - Yellowcard
Hello you, how was the rest?
You made it through, but nevertheless
I got you out on a wire.
You be love and I’ll be a liar.

Tell it all and fill up the air,
But make it loud cause nobody’s there
And nobody’s there
And nobody’s there

Stop, turn, take a look around
At all the lights and sounds.
Let them bring you in.
Slow burn, let it all fade out,
Pull the curtain down.
I wonder where you’ve been?

Make it new, but stay in the lines.
Just let go, but keep it inside.
Smile big for everyone,
Even when you know what they’ve done.
They gave you the end but not where to start;
Not how to build, how to tear it apart.

So tell it all and fill up the air,
But make it loud 'cause nobody’s there
And nobody’s there
And nobody’s there

I've got a way to work this out,
I've got a way and you know how.

I've got a way to work this out,
I've got a way and you know how.

I've got a way to work this out,
I've got a way

I've got a way to work this out,
I've got a way and you know how.

I've got a way to work this out,
I've got a way

I've got a way to work this out,
I've got a way and you know how.

I've got a way to work this out,
I've got a way

Stop, turn, take a look around
At all the lights and sounds.
Let them bring you in.
Slow burn, let it all fade out,
Pull the curtain down.
I wonder where you've been?

You earned everything you found,
And painted faces frown.
I'll say I knew you when...

Inspired by Google Wave

2009-12-02T00:55:00.006+08:00

Hey people, like,
Lately I've been waving,
Late at night,
With the only two people who ever stay up to wave.
Everlyn and Jorel.
[Applause]

Anyway,
Using Google wave has enabled me to talk,
To my primary school friend after ignoring her for like,
2 years.
And of course, she was overjoyed and thus decided that sadly,
I'm her Best Friend Forever.
So, I would like to anounce that
Tay Kai Teng Jorel
is my best friend.
Boo hoo.

Also,
Everlyn Tan Kia Kee
is my twin.
Because of similar phonetics.

That little random snippet aside,
Check out Google Wave,
"Google Wave is an online tool for real-time communication and collaboration. A wave can be both a conversation
and a document where people can discuss and work together using richly formatted text, photos, videos, maps, and more."

It's a really neat networking system and it's really fun to use,
At least, I have fun using it.
Plus, I really need more people to talk to because,
More is always better!
T_T

"But then hor"
Google Wave is currently still a prototype so registrations are,
"Invite-only".
While I have no invitations to give out,
You can request for one from the link above,
Either that or you could wait for the actual release,
And if you don't really care about these kinds of stuff,
Go ahead and ignore this post.
Other than that, Happy Waving!

You'll like me better when I'm sad.

2009-12-02T00:41:00.000+08:00

Well, these stops and starts are getting routine,
First, I get on a roll and start blogging almost everyday,
Next, the blogging everyday gets old.
I get "Xian" of blogging, posting dies down and...
My blog dies temporarily,
I realize that I haven't been blogging and then I post again,
"Sorry"s for not posting and et cetra included.

The cycle then repeats.
It's like some lifecycle of some random short-lived insect.
Buzz.
Now, here's part two of my mellow rants.
Sorry if you're not my target audience,
But it's not like I have anything else to talk about.

This day, 30th November in history,
I bet even my closer friends don't remember what happened a year ago.
On second thought, Fadil does.
But you, likely don't.
There's no purpose in me saying this.
Neither does it comes with any sentimentality.
It's just a year's worth of thought, it's a rant.

Isn't it a wonder how people always think they know you,
What you are, what you like, what you do.
Especially when most of what they think they know,
Is probably something they heard from someone else,
Something they simply assume?

But really, who am I to judge anyone?
I'm just me,
The footnote in everyone's happiness,
No one every reads a footnote.

Check yes Juliet, here's the problem. I can't sing for nuts....

2009-11-14T00:03:00.003+08:00

Today was a weird day in terms of occasion.
In case you didn't know,
It was both Friday the 13th and National Kindness Day.
Now that that's all cleared up,
Think about any unlucky happenings which may have happened to you.
None? Lady luck decided to be kind.
-.-

Bad jokes aside,
Today was packed with remedials.
Social Studies,
A math, but that, thankfully, was cancelled.
Biology.
Also had a bit of Percussion sectionals,
During the free time where ~~we were~~ I was supposed to have A math.

After finishing Biology remedial,
I waited for the "leftover" band members who were playing around,
Went to McDonald's for lunch after that.

Currently I'm one of those people,
Staring into the starry night sky,
And sinking deep into a sea of thoughts.
Some of these thoughts aren't mine,
Few are filled with jubilee.
But above all,
Most of them are questions.

I mourn for every friend I've ever forgotten

2009-11-10T00:11:00.002+08:00

As with every year,
The new friends I make will discover that I don't that any Mother Tongue,
And thus would proceed to ask me.
"Why arh?"
And most of the time,
I only know how to respond with a unsatisfactory
"Oh, it's a learning disability."

So, if you've ever been one of those people who have asked,
But yet still wonder, ponder,
And check wikipedia only to find nothing understandable,
This post is for you.
And I'm lazy to come up with my own material,
So yeah.
Copied from another website.

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Dyslexia results from a neurological difference; that is, a brain difference.
People with dyslexia have a larger right-hemisphere in their brains than those of normal readers.
That may be one reason people with dyslexia often have significant strengths
in areas controlled by the right-side of the brain,
such as artistic, athletic, and mechanical gifts; 3-D visualization ability; musical talent;
creative problem solving skills; and intuitive people skills.

In addition to unique brain architecture, people with dyslexia have unusual "wiring".
Neurons are found in unusual places in the brain, and are not as neatly ordered as in non-dyslexic brains.

In addition to unique brain architecture and unusual wiring,
f/MRI studies have shown that people with dyslexia do not use the same part of their brain when reading as other people.
Regular readers consistently use the same part of their brain when they read.
People with dyslexia do not use that part of their brain,
and there appears to be no consistent part used among dyslexic readers.

It is therefore assumed that people with dyslexia are not using the most efficient part of their brain when they read.
A different part of their brain has taken over that function.

And if that was too "chim",

Dyslexia is an inherited condition that makes it extremely difficult to read,
write, and spell in your native language despite at least average intelligence.

Taken from http://www.dys-add.com/define.html
All text is owned by Bright Solutions for Dyslexia, Inc.
No copyright infringement is intended
I own nothing!
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And that is why I don't take Chinese for my "O" levels,
I tend to miss out my contractions while speaking and
Why I take a longer time to understand math.
But it's also what makes me unique.

Today, I didn't really do anything notable.
I had Band practice,
Had Remedial,
Went to make my passport at the ICA where I waited for 2 long hours,
Had Piano lessons,
And learnt how to play "Rooftops" by the Lostprophets on the acoustic guitar.
The end.

One night can change it all

2009-10-31T00:12:00.003+08:00

You should have bought your tear-away calenders by now.
Today was the 30th of October,
The so called, "last" day of school.
Unfortunately, with the kind of schedule that they've given us,
(The Secondary 3s for the most part)
School hasn't really ended for the year.
Or at least it certainly didn't feel like it has.

The day was kind of tiring,
But even so, it's still rather fruitful.
We received our report books,
We cleared our classrooms of most of the junk in it.
The band performed for the Secondary 1s,
And I helped to mark the field after school.

Anyway, I don't have much to contribute to your life for today.
Thanks for reading.

Today is the 30th of October.

Not that it's supposed to mean anything,

I shouldn't even care what it was a year ago.

Am I more than you bargained for yet?

2009-10-24T12:21:00.001+08:00

The thing is that I have a horrible memory.
Okay, not really.
It's more like it's untrained.
But the consequences of it are pretty much the same
So, instead of waiting till night for me to update my blog,
Why do it during the day while I still have pretty much an idea of what to write?

Well, I tried to do that like, 5 minutes ago.
But my mom called, I answered.
And my unsaved post got wiped.
It's more of a hassle to use than posting from a computer,
But at least it's workable.
Still kinda bummed that all my effort was wasted though.

Mutual Ignorance is decadence

2009-10-22T18:58:00.001+08:00

Hey people!
Anyway, I've just got a new app for blogging,
So this post would mainly be to test it out.

While the rayavali celebration was rather well intentioned,
Honestly, it did bore me.
But eitherway, the three emcees were great
(because I know them)

Lessons were also quite lacking.
Wait, did I say "quite"?
Sorry, I meant extremely.
My class was largely uncooperative,
With our teachers, to do any work.
Moat of us, including me, were like;
'Bahh , xianZz, I dunwan come school de lor!'
Or something like that.
Can't really be helped, it's that time of the year again.

If you were wondering about my results,
All I have to say is that,
I didn't tabulate my marks for English.
And I scored rather well for my Paper 2,
Despite my essay being "one-dimentional".
Will improve on that.
As for the rest of my subjects,
My class has yet to recieve them.

Unfortunately for me and several other classmates and friends,
We had to stay back to take a survey from the ministry of education.
Followed Darren, Derrick, Fadil, Nicholas and Taufiq to lot 1.
Ate pepper lunch, walked around and went home.

Thank you for reading!
- Posted using BlogPress from my iPhone

Your number one with a bullet, Cock and load.

2009-10-19T21:57:00.003+08:00

Well, I finally got through.
Sorry it came late but recently,
Blogger's post-creater was kinda screwed up,
Which, pretty much ruined my mood to write anything.
Only problem would be that,
I'm short on creativity so this particular post would be bite sized.

Anyway,
The exams are [finally] over.
Like the caged bird in summertime we suffered,
As our chains are broken and our shackles released,
We fly towards the light we so longed for during our captivity.
The doves take flight.

While personally I didn't really study as much for my EOY as compared to what I did for my MYE,
I still feel that I'll fare rather well.
On the other hand, my physics has apparently deproved,
Based on my mcq scores, and feedback from Ms Tiong.
(Thank you if you're reading this)
While I don't think that I'll fail,
I'd say I'm kind of disappointed with myself,
But of course I won't display my mcq score and go all "self-pity",
At which point most of you will probably have something to say.

Today I went out with Li Cheng and Ting Yew to watch;
Cloudy with a chance of meatballs.
The movie was really great, unlike most of the dissapointments this year.
And that's about all I have to say.

Thank you for bothering to read.
Tags will be appreciated.

I am a knight of the Coffee Table. One Ice Milo please!

2009-10-06T21:36:00.000+08:00

Today,

Social Studies and Physics examinations.

It was totally.... not that bad actually.

(don't hate me >.<)

Anyway most of the questions were attemptable,

Given that you studied really really hard.

Or rather really really really hard.

But all in all, what I lament most is being unable to finish the SS paper,

Despite knowing how to do, more or less, all the questions.

And I believe that was the case for many other people.

Crap. I sound like I'm writing some essay.

Moving on.

On my way out from the General Office where I had my papers,

I was dragged away by, Clement, Ticko, Justin, Nicholas De'silva, Solomon and Haziq.

We ate at the Pizza Hut at Zhenghua.

Played basketball, joined by Tricia and Cassandra.

(sorry if I spelt your names wrong)

To summarize the game,

I got smacked by the ball in my face,

My bridge of my spectacles is like, flat now, and.

Finally I sucked, end of story.

Okay, actually, not really.

It's more like I don't play very often.

And so, we finished our game,

On my way home had a bad stomachache,

Rushed back.

Did an absolutely zero amount of studying.

Wrote this post.

Thank you for reading!

As things come to pass, for all that we've done.

2009-09-19T21:51:00.004+08:00

If you picked out eloquent post titles from my blog archive,
You would get a song.

If you (namely Derrick) were wondering about,
The clip featuring the acoustic version of "Creep" by Radiohead,
It's taken from this French flim called "Ils se marièrent et eurent beaucoup d'enfants",
(Translation: They married and had many children)
Aka "...And they lived happily ever after".
And yes, that is Johnny Depp appearing as a cameo.

Today is the second day that I'm staying over at my Grandparent's house.
It's Landed property, has a thick roofs that nerfs reception,
And only accessible by taking bus 170 or 140,
To the nearest bus stop and then walking up a long slope,
Ala Kok Foo's house.

Currently, my parents are overseas, in the Philippines.
So rather than letting me stay alone at home,
They decided to have me live here for about 1 week.
I'm fine either way, but I kinda feel bad for imposing on my Grandparents,
Not like I have a choice though.

It's kinda hard to get messages here,
So if I don't answer you messages or calls,
Don't feel rejected, it's probably just the walls.
(It rhymes! Okay, i know I'm lame.)

Another problem I'm having would be communication.
My Grandparents more or less speak only in Chinese,
With only a sprinkle of random English words.
On the other hand.
I'm only fluent in English and I don't work well with Mandarin.
So in the week ahead till I move back,
No matter how much it seems like I'm exaggerating my needs,
Wish me luck.

Despite everything.
It's still rather nice to get away from my parents for a while.
The environment here's also really homely,
And there's even a electric drumset here that I can use,
If I don't mind the hassle of setting it up and then putting it back which I do.

Comment moderation and opinion.

2009-09-16T22:39:00.000+08:00

I'm an indecisive person,
Certainly I'd like to improve,
But well, these things don't happen overnight.
I hate it when events clash,
And I hate it even more when priorities aren't laid out crystal clear.

Anyway, once again I didn't have much to write,
(I've probably said this line like, a hundred times)
But I decided to just post anyway while I still have the time to do so,
Personally, I rate this a 5/10,
It was rushed.

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Wednesday - 16/9/09, 1st EOY Study Session.
School was yet another day of "conducive learning".
Went to Bukit Panjang Plaza,
With Solomon, Alfred, Tricia and Jia Hui to,
Firstly have lunch, and then to study.

Lunch was a Mc'Chicken meal, plain.
We were about halfway through our food when Li Cheng joined us.
Ivan also happened to be there where we started this really childish straw bursting affair that was more or less was a total embarrassment of ourselves in public.
Oh and we were still in school uniform.

Our second stop was the library,
Went there, sat in the children's section for a while before we were chased out,
Moved to the "Above 12" section and started.
It wasn't really much of a study session,
Just more of simply doing our uncompleted homework,
Especially since none of us brought any other materials besides our school essentials.
We had a bit of fun as well, especially with people like Solomon and Li Cheng around.

Ended off the whole thing with a trip to 7-11, which was under renovation,
Where I intended to buy those little,
200ml cartons of low fat, high calcium, magnolia milk with a cute cow affixed.
Unfortunately, in timely response to our entrance,
One of the staff said (in Chinese) "What happened to this section, all the milk's gone!"

We then proceeded to procrastinate on going home.
The end.

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Another excerpt from Rock Paper Cynic

Anything that can go wrong likely will

2009-09-15T20:50:00.018+08:00

I possess neither the mood nor motivation to study.
3 weeks isn't a lot of time to study in the first place,
Yet I'm just letting the hours float past.
I'm not being complacent,
I'm being way too controlled by my feelings,
Sorta used up all my energy for psycho-ing myself in the first 3 terms,
letting everything go now.
Dear Gravity, you're holding me down in this starless city.

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Monday - First day of Term 4, 14/9/09
Yesterday was basically a "Bahh, back to school -.- " day.
Pretty much everyone was still in a holiday mood,
Got caught for long hair by Ms Teo and so I went to cut it after school,
Resulting in the crappy haircut.
Yes, I'm superficial.
Considering pretending to have an Obsessive Compulsive Disorder for appearances,
And hopefully get excused from grooming checks. Whatever.

Tuesday - Your average pre-EOY school day, 15/9/09
Really nothing much to mention,
Me feeling really awkward and expressing myself weirdly.
Haziq falling asleep on his bag,
Resulting in the brand being embossed on his cheek.
And the last would be me skipping Z2H alumni.
Wasn't really in the mood I guess,
Spent most of my time sleeping and using the computer.
Spared a few minutes for piano.

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Here's the acoustic version of Creep by Radiohead.
It's really super Emo, you have been warned.
Enjoy, and for those who have started,
Happy Mugging.

When these two collide, it's no coincidence

2009-09-04T21:05:00.002+08:00

Friday - The last day of Term 3, 4/9/09
I have no idea why people continue to visit my blog,
Even though most of the time I'm not able to finish my posts.
Anyway I sorta gave up on trying to update for the events that happened in the past week.
I'll work on that, after I finish this post.
Blogging's kind of like a chore for me right now,
Especially since I haven't done proper posts since the common tests,
I'd say I'm rusty.

Really hoping to enjoy this short 8 day holiday,
But things don't really look too bright now,
At least for Monday, Tuesday and Wednesday.
It's back to school, back to school, back to school,
Party and then on to HxC studying,
Okay, maybe only sub-core,
Not really feeling too diligent.

Another thing would be that I'm looking forward
To the movie "9", Directed by Shane Acker.
Would really want to watch it when it comes out on 9/9/09,
A Wednesday.
Which happens to be Li Cheng's birthday too.
(I think)

Tomorrow I'll be heading down to Civil Service Colleague,
To help out with the setup for the equipment.
At least, that was the plan.
Unfortunately I have to be there by 12:30,
The timing of which clashes with my math tuition.
Sad right?

Will go immediately after the class.
But I feel like such a freeloader,
Not like I have much of a choice.
Alternatively, I could just skip the concert all in all.
It'll think about it.
Enjoy your Holidays!

But I'm a creep, a weirdo, not meant to be here, for all that's said and done,

2009-09-03T17:26:00.000+08:00

Hey look! I missed several consecutive posts again.
I'm utterly horrible at "Not Procrastinating",
Thus the lack in content over the last few days,
Okay maybe I did attempt several times to put something up,
Not that you would care anyway my dear reader.
Anyway, as usual, I'll write whatever happened in recent memory,
In one single post.

In future, if you wouldn't mind,
Text message, Twitter or IM me to remind me to post,
Or even better, post at a decent time so I don't end up trying to put something up just before I sleep and end up having to wait till the next day to finish the text up.
Of course, unless you want to see the same old page everytime you visit my blog,
That's fine with me too.

Friday - Nothing special, just random. 29/8/09
On this day, Ms Siti asked if I dyed my hair.
Obviously, I didn't,
Cause I'm such a good boy.
Okay, that was random...

Monday - Happy Teacher's Day, 31/8/09
-to be continued-

So I can be someone new

2009-08-27T22:24:00.000+08:00

Well, I'd say I've been devoid of inspiration for posting,
During the past week,
Sure, some notable things happened,
Including but not limited to my birthday,
But overall,
I felt there wasn't much material for me to work with for a post,
Yes, I'm well aware I sound like,
Some high-end fashion designer or something
* insert cough from reader *
But it's just that I'm a perfectionist.
Okay, well, not really, it's an On/Off thing,
Anyway, right now, I feel like typing an awesome post.
And with my amazing powers of foresight,
I foresee that it probably won't turn out to be what I have in mind.

Tuesday - Mio Box change, 25/8/09
Ignoring the morning,
I went down to BPP after school, accompanied by Kok Foo,
To get lunch and have my IC photo taken.
I was relatively broke after that,
Especially since you had to purchase a minimum of 6 photos for 10 bucks.
At least they photoshopped the pictures that were taken,
Not that it totally makes up for the price but it's still a plus.

That aside,

I happened to see quite a number of people I know,

In the gallery of taken photos.

Wednesday - NRIC procedures, 26//8/09
Once again ignoring the morning,
On the next day,
During the admin stuff for the making of our ICs.

I was like, writing in my phone number,
When my hand sorta got stuck to my IC photo,
Don't ask me how, it just did.
Probably something to do with the laptop "exhaust" or something.

Got my hand off, leaving a bunch of fibers on the gloss,
Which I promptly tried to rub off as much as I could.
Right now, I'm half-expecting my IC to come back to me dotted-ish,
Or even worse, disfigured.
I'll be crossing my fingers till I get it.

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Day-to-day issues behind,
I'l like to state that,
I think I'm addicted to "Open Happiness",
It's this cute little song from the Coca-Cola company,
Written by Butch Walker.
The song features Brendon Urie, Patrick Stump,
Janelle Monae, Travis McCoy and Cee-Lo Green.
Here's the video.

If I take anything away from watching this video,
It'd be about the benefits of following random out-of-place animals down alleys.
Hope you enjoyed this post.

The times when I was Lost and Depressed from the awful truth...

2009-08-24T22:14:00.002+08:00

First of all,
I would like to thank everyone for their birthday wishes,
So here goes,

Thank you very much!

Yeah, I really need to learn how to thank people more creatively,
Anyway, your words really meant a lot to me,
I would type out all of your names but if I somehow left one of yours out,
It'd be kinda bad so I won't,
Just know it in your heart.
Okay, maybe I'm just crapping, =/
Sorry.

Really nothing much I have to say about today,
Some things went horribly,
Others were on the other end of the scale.
Sorry that you all didn't get the chance to "taupok" me,
But don't worry, there's always next time,
I'll still be here!
Also, I had no idea how great Hysteria sounds on a big amp.
I know It's about time I should be,
Posting something about last last week,
As well as the final party on Saturday.
I'll get to it soon.

Would also like to recommend a song,
That was played by Beyond Saving during the Z2H Final party.
It's the acoustic version of "My Heroine" by Silverstein,
Okay, maybe it's not that nice,
But I like it so... yeah.
That's all for this post.
Thanks for reading.

A night's ender, remember.

2009-08-23T21:32:00.003+08:00

Know what, I just recently bought the lastest album by Fall Out Boy;
"Folie A Deux ( read : a madness shared by two )"
And I can officially say that I'm hooked.
It's totally an awesome album despite the unusual style to it,
It's a nice change of pace to FOB's usual punk rock beats.
"West Coast Smoker" sounds a bit like "Living on a Prayer" though.

Anyway,
My Sundays are boring,
You won't wanna bother to know what happened,
So I'll save you the trouble by not typing the whole thing out.
It's just a Four-liner I'll type out.
I walked around Lot 1 a bit, bought the album with the remaining $10 voucher I had,
Was a hard decision between "Oh!Gravity" and "Folie A Deux",
Decided to go with the more classy sounding one,
Swtichfoot's still quite a happening band though.
The End.

I'll elaborate on the Final Party at a later time,
Will also write something on the national day weekend from last last week,
Meanwhile,
Please enjoy this little recording,
Of the Alumni members and I picking up the food,
For the party from Dunman Secondary

I know that the video is not very clear,
It's taken with a cameraphone after all,
Plus I have shaky hands, =/
I also apologize for my extremely low voice,
And any boringness this video may present to you,
Even if you may not see it,
I really had a lot of fun with my seniors,
So no matter what the above may seem like to you,
I'll always have a different perspective of it

I know that this time I didn't really put much heart into writing this post out,
Really sorry for that, just not in the mood for typing anything lengthy out,
Thank you very much for reading all the crap that I have,
And in case you were wondering what my repeated tweets on twitter were about,
I've got troubled thoughts and the self-esteem to match, What a Catch,

Stoichiometry

2009-08-20T22:39:00.005+08:00

Today - 20/8/09

It's been about one week since I last posted,

Now that I'm not trying to "chiong" my last minute studying,

I'm able to post, but I procrastinated again,
So I'm typing this just before I knock off,

This one will be short (compared to my normal post length) .

Anyway, Common Test 2 is finally over.

I hope that we all do well regardless of any pessimism that we may have,

Half-cup-full thoughts and all that jazz.

In hindsight,

I should have studied harder for the tests,

However, saying that doesn't really make a difference.

But it helps in the process of moving on,

We make stupid mistakes, we learn from them,

We fall, we get back on our feet.

Right now, I'm well prepared to forget everything about studies and exams,

I have only two things in mind right now,

Getting addicted to some nerd-ish game that will be strangely entertaining.
Z2H Final Party this Saturday (22 August),

Speaking about the Final party,

I'll be doing a skit together with the other alumnis,

Well, that, plus we're playing two songs,
As previously mentioned in the 6th August post.

And now, before ending off this post,

I would like to make special mention in regards to the E-maths period today,

Most of us spent the first half of the 55 minutes of free time studying,

But after that I think we started to get bored.

So during the second half,

I kinda jutted into this conversation with the northwest people,

In our class about the future job prospects of our classmates.

It was, seriously funny, but yet at the same time,
Some of those jokes were kind of bad, morally.

Just to let you know we laughed at your expense.
But of course it did not go without equivalent exchange,
(ala getting some of your own medicine)
I was passed off as in future,
An Einstein-ish guy who finally dawns upon the fact that he's 40 and still not married.
So not happening.

Have a nice Friday!

This is my heart, stomping into this forsaken song

2009-08-06T22:30:00.012+08:00

Well, once again I've been caught up in a swirling torrent of opportunities and nonsense.
And thus I couldn't post until now.
Once again sorry for the delay in posting,
But it couldn't really be avoided.

Tuesday - Recess jam session / Ms Chan's birthday / Z2H Alumni, 4/08/09
About the most complicated heading for any given specific day I ever had.
First off, the Recess Jam Session.
Basically here's how it started,
A week back (about 27/7/09),
Derrick and I were like,
"Hey, I need an excuse to bring my guitar"
And so we planned to play the song "Face Down" by the Red Jumpsuit Apparatus,
But of course with ample time to memorize and nail the song.

Unfortunately our plans were laid to waste,
Very much thanks to numerous busybodies,
With a thousand and one questions to ask,
As well as an extremely early physics teacher.
Sorry Derrick for making you bring your guitar for nothing,
Maybe next time.

Second point,
The day before when I was talking to Alfred who had just added me,
The subject that Miss Chan's birthday was the following day came up,
And so we started a class conference with the miserably few classmates from 3C that I had in msn,
Anyway, we came up with making a card, I think,
That as well as playing our beloved form teacher a "Happy Birthday" song with the guitar which I already planned to bring.
However, this too failed, part of which I owe to myself.

I was playing the song in 4/4 time,
Which I felt, sounded much more contemporary,
But the version of "Happy Birthday" that most of you are accustomed to singing is in 3/4.
And with these two mindsets put together,
All it took to crash the song was logistics.
At least Ms Chan appreciated the effort we put in.
Oh and thanks to Solomon, Bernard and Cheakmin for the superb cake after school.

Attraction.
The Alumni meeting was kinda crazier than usual.
Especially with Kevin (my human metronome) around.
Either way, I think I'm slowly going deaf,
Meeting by meeting because I'm trying to add "Umph" to the song by playing louder.
On the other hand, my playing of the drums is improving,
Or at least I think it is,
Just need to create more contrast between the chorus and verse,
Rush the tempo less and add more elaborate and preferably graceful fill ins.

So for the first part of the approx 3 hour meeting,
We played our individual songs,
TwitchHand, the "Instructor" band,
Playing "Awakening" by "Switchfoot", awesome song, go look it up.
Coldplace, the "Participant" band,
Playing "About A Girl" by "The Academy Is..."

And for the second part of the meeting,
We practiced and planned our skit.
Unfortunately Kevin doesn't have a part,
I don't know why, but still, sorry Kevin.
Had a mad time, quite a number of inside jokes,
Examples would be stuff like,
"Lets warm ourselves up!",
Center Partings and Exaggerated Sleeping,
You can ask me about them if you want,
But you'd be likely not to laugh unless you experienced it yourself.

Seriously can't wait for the final party on 22nd August,
Sadly I'll still have to worry about my exams,
Honestly I think I will do extremely horribly this time,
I mean, I haven't even started revision and the test is only about a week away.
Gonna have to wake up my idea ASAP.
Wish me luck for CT2.

Chicka pow wow boom boom boom

2009-08-02T19:50:00.001+08:00

Last last last Saturday - Z2H midway party, 18/7/09
Oh and in the last post I forgot to mention,
Kevin was given a honorary welcome to the alumni team as a new member,
Not that he's new or anything,
Everyone just felt really hyper after the whole thing.
And we stayed back afterwards to watch our previous instructors play legendary songs,
What do I mean?
Think of "Eye of the Tiger" , "Rosary" and the like.
It was fun, but me and Kevin got back home pretty late.
Still fun nevertheless.

Can't wait for the final party,
It's on the 22nd of August,
Hopefully the preparations for it won't affect my studies,
Gonna have to continue going back to Henderson to perfect "About a Girl",
Currently my timing on the drums is horrible,
I keep rushing at the high parts unconsciously,
Overall I think I sound decent enough,
But still quite sucky if you compare me to the rest of "Rubberband".

Sunday - Current reasoning, 2/8/09
Seriously, Once again,
I'm quite clueless on how to go on.
Anyway, today I went to my great-grandma's,
Collected "Ang paos",
"Isn't it too early?" I asked which was shortly replied by my aunts,
"No lah, we go by the month, not the week".

Also got a chance to look at Mabel's new I-phone,
Haven't gotten mine yet,
Heck, I haven't even been notified that new stock came in.
Will probably try the corporate route soon if this continues.
Other than my going to my relative's house I didn't really do much,
So that's all I'll say about today.

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By the way, have any of you listened to Panic! At the Disco's new single?
Well, I have,
Personally "New Perspective" doesn't really click with me,
But still, it's a good song even though it's something short of
"I write sins not tragedies" and "Lying is the most...",
Generally I prefer larger choruses and non-over-repetitive lyrics which,
Would explain why you might find the song nice when I don't.

Oh and I really need to start studying,
Already resolved to begin this week,
Even so it's a little late in my opinion,
At times, I really feel like I'm a sloth,
Going like "Yeah man! I'll study!!!!!! later....".
And so I procrastinate, procrastinate, and procrastinate...
Get the picture?
I'll be going to do my homework now.
That is all.

Listening to fall out boy helps with literature.

2009-07-30T18:07:00.080+08:00

Okay, my blog died for a while but now it's back from the grave.

Been wanting to update these few days,

But with all my business and procrastination,

My only free time to post was limited to the night,

By which I would be to sleepy to finish the post.

The result; a whole role of drafts in my "posting" tab.

As usual I don't really have much to say in the first place,

But because I didn't post for quite a while,

Those little bunches of "what I want to say" gives me a nice bundle for my post,

Or something, I'm just crapping around

Either way don't expect too much from this poster,

I'm just a guy trying to improve his wordsmanship.

Last Last Saturday - Z2H midway party, 18/7/09

Totally fun day for me as you would know if you were following me on twitter,

If you didn't know what the Z2H midway party is,

(which would most probably be the case)

There are only about two things you need to know.

Z2H is a competition in which you form a band,
Playing an instrument of which you preferably have no knowledge of.
Participants will be trained to play their respective instruments to a common song shared by all bands,
As well as to play together.
At the end of the season,
Said participants will have to play two songs on the finals,
And will be graded by a panel of judges.
The winner of the season will be decided by two things,
The grade the judges gave them as well as their performance pre-finals.
I was part of the committee (Z2H Alumni) that organized the midway party,
Of which was for the participant's enjoyment for this season.

My job on that day was to do registration,

Which basically meant sitting on a chair beside another admin,

In front of a table set up in the goods lift lobby for the floor,

Without air conditioning,

Taking the attendance of the attendees of the party.

But of course it wasn't as bad as it sounds.

That was only part of the day,

Plus they put a fan to fan the both of us,

Ashley and I.

Oh and Kevin also tagged along for that day,

He sat beside me playing random songs on his phone.

Following our jobs of registration,

Dinner ensured.

Dinner was in the form of Canadian 2 for 1 terriyaki chicken flavored pizza.

My first time trying it, at first glance it looked really weird,

But regardless, I still took a bite,

At which I discovered it tasted much better than it looks,

Paving the way for 2 more slices and a few sips of peach tea.

Have I mentioned I hate peach?

Was assigned to group 6 for the duration of the games,

We had lots of fun,

Especially with our emcees for the day, Bryan and Nicholas.

Oh and with "Emma" as a showgirl.

If you're interested as to how the whole thing looked like,

Feel free to check the photos out on Facebook.

A pity I look stupid in the only two shots I was in.

Last Friday - 24/7/09

I don't really remember anything from the day,

However I do remember going out,

With my cousins at night to the Ben & Jerry's at the night safari,

To celebrate Mabel's graduation.

Had quite a lot of fun there, eating ice-cream and looking at the souvenirs they were selling.

By the way, the food and drinks there are extremely overpriced.

Some things I spotted:

A plate of chicken rice selling at a "discounted" rate of $10.50, original price $17++

A plate of chicken chop, $11++

A bottle of coke, $4.

However the ice-creams at B&J's still sell for the same price as any other B&J's store in Singapore

Morale of the story,

Places of interest are expensive.

Wednesday - 29/7/09

Nothing in particular.
Mdm Teo didn't come for Chinese lesson,
Boring E-math.

Band after school.

If it's so uneventful then why post about Wednesday?

Well, I misplaced something and I simply feel like telling the whole world about it.

Basically what happened was that,
Upon reaching home after Band,
I realized that my drumsticks were not in my bag,

Which meant that I probably left them in school.

Hopefully they're still in school,
And will still be there when I go for band tomorrow,
Or better yet, you can help me take my sticks, thanks!

Today - 30/7/09

Notice how I'm adding datestamps to my headings?

I have no idea why I'm doing this but it seems rather nice,

Or professional, or neat.

Will probably incorporate this in future posts.

Currently feeling VERY pissed,

Vista decided to shutdown itself, on it's own,

Without asking me while I was having piano lesson.

Lost everything after "last Friday".
I'm so dumbstruck as to what to write,
Used up all my inspiration or something.
And so I'm currently listening the "Carpal Tunnel of Love" to vent my anger,

You can check the music video out if you want,

Personally I haven't watched it but I know it's a "Happy Tree Friends" video.

And it even has a "happy" ending!

Oh and I'm also looking around on forums for people who share the same situation with me.

At least this unhappy issue adds substance to the post.

Back to topic.

Today was the photoshoots for about all the Secondary 3 classes,

As if you didn't know that.

Anyway, crazy poses, good posture and height differences were the highlights for the day,

Made-up couples, weird actions and rowdy behavior were the supporting actors.
We had a bit of fun,
But I think everyone was more excited about getting to skip class rather than the photoshoot itself.

As the gap between the present and our impending exams closes in,
I sorta I'm still slacking away way too much,
Gonna have to push myself sometime soon if not I'll never get started with exam prep.
Speaking of exams, I'm kinda starting to like A-math more,
Hopefully it'll help with my preparation for CT2 in terms of attention span,
I get distracted easily you see.

On the other hand, I feel like going out with friends,
I guess it's cause June didn't satisfy my "fun with friends" quota.
Hoping someone will organize something soon,
So I can focus instead of dreaming of an outing.

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Hope you enjoyed this post,
It was a horror to write with all the continuous crashes thanks to vista.
Also, I'm trying to change in response to the tags written by Yu Fei,
But not completely as I don't totally agree with everything he said.
Once again, comments and suggestions,
As long as they are not of coarse language, are appreciated.
Thank you.

It's a RED HOT summer.

2009-07-22T22:45:00.000+08:00

Oh look, I finally posted again.
You see, the problem with me is that,
When I want to post, I'm too busy,
When I do have the time to post,
I procrastinate till I'm busy again and so the cycle goes on.
Originally I would have liked to talk about last Saturday,
Which was basically the Z2H mid-way party I looked so much to last week,
But I more or less don't know what to write about it.
So I'm gonna leave it for another day after I consolidate my thoughts.
For now I'll talk about today's school day.
Only this time I won't emphasize so much on the boring parts like Bumber (Yu Fei) said.

I feel so inspired by "Pay it forward",
During our English period today we watched the movie,
Really nice movie, even if we weren't given the chance to finish watching it.
Basically it's about this boy,
Trevor who happens to be from a broken home,
With a single mom who struggles to recover from alcoholism.
Like most other kids, he believes in the goodness of human nature,
When given an assignment by his social studies teacher,
Trevor goes out to help a homeless man get back on his feet,
But instead of paying back that favor,
That homeless man is told to pay it forward, and with three rules to follow.
One, it has to be something that really helps the person.
Two, it must be something they can't do by themselves.
Three, when you help that person, he or she must do the same for three other people.

And no, this isn't gonna turn into a movie review.
It's just that it's emotionally galvanizing, perfectly simple and yet well thought out.
If you help three people who help three people each and so on.

1 x 3 = 3
3 x 3 = 9
9 x 3 = 27
27 x 3 = 81

And through the magic of exponential growth,
In by helping 3 people, you indirectly help everyone who falls within the system.
Even if some of the said people didn't fill their 3-person quota,
Just under half of 80 is still quite significant for a single person.
Yes, it's just a movie, fictional and all but don't we all find ourselves asking,
Why is the world in such a mess,
Why is everything so unfair?

While something like this certainly wouldn't create a truly Utopian world,
It will go to some extent towards making everyone happy.
And yet I doubt I'd ever do something like that myself,
For the same reason that helps you get to bed every night post "drag me to hell",
"It's just a movie, it's not real"
Plus my doubt that anyone would really pass on that torch,
Would they really care about the big picture, will they even be able to stay above needing help?
If it's so great then why hasn't it been done?
But at the same time I'll continue to question myself,
With all my "what if it's really possible?",
That's all for this subject-specific post.

Someone has his WHAMMY BAR! =D

2009-07-17T21:03:00.005+08:00

I'm finally recovering from my annual case of throat infection,
Anyway these few days have been HORRIBLE,
The days at home were sorta borish,
The days in school we unconfortable,
And on my first day back in school after my mc,
(Thursday)
I wasn't thinking properly because my energy was sapped by my immune system to fight the germs,
Heck, I couldn't even answer Ms Loe's simple question of:
"If the number is less than zero is it above or below the line"
Which now, in my correct state of mind I can obviously answer "below".

At least it got better today,
But I think my voice kinda went haywire during school hours today,
It did some sort of deep raspy thing then after that it was simply just wheezing or something,
Which was enough for Nicholas to make fun of me with his exaggerated notion of what a joke is.
Anyway he made up for it by pressurizing me,
To quickly finish my situational writing which I stayed back to finish up.

Which brings me to our physics period.
I don't think I'll do well for this particular physics test,
Didn't seriously sit down and study for it,
Only went through some formulas at best.
Also forgot some of the main concepts that were tested.
Will pass at most, my answers were half-baked enough.

After school on both Thursday and Friday,
I had to go for my physiological assessment.
Which sadly, meant I couldn't go off enjoying the start of the weekends with my friends.
However the physiological assessment is necessary for my exemption,
From Chinese and time extension during the "O" levels.

The tests they gave me weren't too hard,
Just the kind of things you would see in an IQ test,
On second thought, it was an IQ test.
Except they also gave two other auxiliary tests,
One for literacy and one for memory to compare my potential against performance.
The full report won't be ready for about a month but I know some of the basic results,
I have an IQ of 135 against people my age in the USA,
My literacy skills are rather good while on the other hand,
My memory is only in the average range.

I can't wait for the Mid-way party tomorrow,
Yes, I know it's not held for me,
I'm just one of the crew helping out with the admin stuff.
But I still feel hyper when I think about it,
I'm guessing it has something to do with being smiles to faces,
Or something like that,
Too bad I won't have much company of people my age whom I can relate to.
I'm also wondering how the alumni band that took part in Bandage did,
I'll just ask them tomorrow then I see them...

Eitherway that's all for this post,
I tried to leave out most of the uninteresting stuff and to keep the sentence halving to a minimum,
Comments on how I can improve will be appreciated,
As will tags.

I'm slipping into the lava..

2009-07-15T13:29:00.001+08:00

This post will be regarding 14/7/09,
15/7/9 will be uploaded shortly.

No, I didn't go to school,
I'm sick you see and I have an mc for two days off,
I feel horrible and it's like there's some invisible sadist trying to strangle me,
Only problem is that he seems to lack to muscle power to fully constrict my throat.
But rather than rant about all the bad things I'm going through,
I would rather talk about something I found enjoyable.

I came back really late yesterday after Z2H,
Still wasn't feeling too well so I skipped posting and went to bed as fast as I could.
I've been down with a really bad throat infection or something.
Currently regretting saying that I'd rather fall sick than go to school,
Being healthy is way better,
And I'm sure other people affected by the bug that's going around would agree.

Totally had fun at yesterday's Z2H alumni meeting,
I reached there rather early,
About 6pm as opposed to 7pm, the actual meeting time.
Kevin didn't come because he was having a horrible headache or something.
I passed the time by practicing my 16-note beat patterns,
Also had some help for my fill-ins from David,
One of the overseers for the Alumni.
We only spent around 20 minutes for the final discussion for the Midway party on this Saturday,
The rest was all jamming,
Right now I'm currently a substitute drummer,
For the band that will play for the Z2H participants on the final party,
It's on 22 August, 2 days from my birthday,
Hopefully the preparations for it won't class with the coming exams.

Keith surprisingly, also came,
Apparently he's on MC and since he had that time off,
Decided to join in for today's meeting.
He helped me with the drums for the song "Burnin' Up" by the Jonas Brothers,
I managed to get the basic rhythm right but I still need work for my tempo and fill-ins,
But I think my illness also affected my drumming a little.

I love that song even though I want to hate it,
The Jonas Brothers are like,
Disney cash-cows, but it's just so darn catchy,
If only they'd sing songs made for kids,
So we can just mock them and everything would be so simple,
But no, they just had to rock.
Great, now I can't bring myself to hate them.
Disney triumphs once again.

We spent quite a while working out our individual parts,
Also went through some rounds together.
Overall it was not bad for a first try of the song,
I think we sounded decent enough,
It just needs some polishing.
A few rounds of jamming later,
Someone brought up the classic subject of;
"What will our band be called?"
After much "careful" consideration,
The name "Rubberband" came to be.
Played for a while more before we wound down,
By the time we all went home it was about 9:40pm.
Kinda sad I won't be able to make it for Bandage,
The competition Recording 13's taking part in,
I like going for concerts and stuff,
Especially with friends.

I'm waiting to get a new phone,
Originally when I wanted an I phone,
My parents were rather okay with it,
They even seemed more excited about getting the phone than I was,
But I told them that I changed my mind about it,
Reason being that since everyone wanted one or would have one,
It would seem so standardized,
Plus it doesn't really have anything much to help you separate your I phone from the rest,
Especially with the lack of background images.

However, now I've changed my mind again and took back what I said to them.
(Yes I'm sorta fickle minded)
Anyway, if I really wanted my I phone to be different,
It doesn't have to be in it's software,
Heck, I can always stick a skin on it to make it stand out.

CCAs will be resuming shortly

2009-07-13T22:45:00.002+08:00

Evan's life is as about uneventful as a snail's,
Minus the ever so often "getting stepped on" part.
Please note that today's post will be extremely monotonous and boring.

Reached school at about 8:15 am,
Had prayer group,
Back to class at 8:30 am for the start of classes.
After our temperature taking we had our mother tongue lesson,
Where I had to be in the Library but because there were leftovers from a buffet,
Stinking up the place such that there were even flies circling the area.
I decided to go back up to class instead,
Didn't do much up there, I meant to do my homework,
But instead I doodled.

A-math was spent copying notes,
Not that I particularly mind it,
But it just seems so superficial.
Recess wasn't too much of a happy thing either thanks to the absence of Darren and Kian Wee.
Also spent some time listening to Nicholas complaining about the smell of the deodorant being sprayed in our class.
For social studies I really couldn't pay attention to the lecture,
Two main reasons.
One, I was sitting beside really really hyper people,
Two, I didn't really find the lesson interesting.

In Chemistry, we did some stuff on density,
I feel that Mr Loo goes really slow for his lessons,
But of course, that's because he puts so much emphasis on writing the headings,
Fair enough I guess, my tuition teacher does it too,
It's supposedly a life saver if you somehow make a mistake while panicking in your chemistry exam.
English was mostly spent updating the class with world news,
And the last 15 minutes of the lesson or so were spent on doing our report.

After school I accompanied Kok Foo for our journey home,
Took the bus, laughed at certain comical characters we knew in school,
Got off at the bus stop outside my house.
Only problem was that I returned only to find that I left my keys at home,
And so I went back to Bpp, ate at Long John Silver's,
Read books for a while till my mom finished her lessons.
And that's about everything that happened.
Sorry it's so boring,
Not like anything really happened though.

Paramore songs make me feel like I'm having a holiday, Fall Out Boy songs make me feel like I know what I'm doing....

2009-07-12T21:09:00.001+08:00

Obviously, once again I didn't post again for the last few days.
Sorry to my readers,
Especially when I didn't blog because I was lazy.

Friday,
10/7/09
School as per normal Friday,
Only things that I would like to highlight for this day,
Would be Kok Foo, Jordan, Derrick and I
Going to Darren's house,
And our prerequisite to getting there.

Basically, after school,
Me, Kok Foo and Derrick started off waiting for the guys from 3D,
After a heck lot of waiting and maybe a bit of eating,
We finally decided to go up to their class,
To find out what was taking them so long,
But we got there only to find the class empty.
Anyway, we crapped around while in the class,
Which would explain,
Why you might see random stuff on the board this Monday,
Charles and Derrick also did a bit of wrestling,
But it looked kinda kinky,
Especially with their red-hot curtains,
It gave the room an "Adult Shop" kind of feel,
Almost took a photo but I was sorta slow, so no pictures.

Later on, after we concluded that,
Kian Wee, Darren and Jordan,
MUST have gone home because we haven't seen them,
Kian Wee suddenly appeared in the doorway,
Wasting no time in placing a couple of files in the cupboard.
Followed him down to outside the staff room,
Where we met up with the other half.
Talked for a while before we got going.
Oh and we also saw some people using the Dance Studio for Jamming,
And may I add, whose idea was it to scotch tape the drums...
-_-#

So we finally went on our way,
Flash forward 15 minutes,
Tud-duh, we were at our destination,
Where Jordan noted that apparently the "Wolverine" video,
Was shown by a certain teacher to a secondary 4 class.

Darren acted really suspicious when we first got there,
Perhaps something to hide hmm?
Anyways it wasn't of much use in the end,
We still more or less found out why.
(No it's not pornography you sickos, Tsk.)
Plus it turned out to be so trivial,
Guess he's really paranoid about those kind of things.

Time really flew while we played on his computers,

Facebooked, PS2-ed,

And watched a Micheal Jackson Tribute video on MTV,

Complete with Darren dancing and Singing along.

Played Restraunt City for my first time there,
Yes, I know I'm slow...
Had our lunch in the form of cup noodles there,
Accompanied by Rambutans and Swiss rolls.
By the time we left the sun was already about down,
We definitely overstayed, only left at about 7pm+.
In any case, we had a truckload of fun there.

Saturday.
11/7/09
Nothing much to say here,
It was more or less my usual activities.
Today was the first day of drum lessons since we changed teachers,
The new teacher isn't bad I guess,
Really gets to the point,
I also like that he tries to help us to play faster.
But we're not really close or anything yet,
Maybe in a while I guess.

Also had a change in my schedule,
I now have my maths tuition on Saturdays,
Instead of the usual Monday,
Due to the change in the currently suspended Band practices.

Had church later on,
And had my dinner at a Subway in Anchor Point shopping mall,
There were quite a couple of outlet stores with heavy discounts there,
May consider going there in future,
But other than that there wasn't much.

Sunday.
12/7/09
If anything, standing alone,
Today would make for the most uneventful post,
But of course, that would depend on my tone,
And the way I put it down won't it?
About everything was ordinary.
I woke up at about 11am, had Chemistry tuition,
Ate breakfast,
Went to my Father's Grandmother's house for lunch,
Came home where I watched Anime,
Surfed the net till now,
(yeah I know it's unhealthy..)
And had my dinner.
End.

Brick walls, hard falls.

2009-07-09T21:41:00.008+08:00

Well, here I am to post,
Not that I really have much to say about today in the first place,
Anyway look at the date,
Time really flies doesn't it?
I mean, just a while ago we were still enjoying ourselves with our June holidays,
But look at us now, we're back in school with our exams coming up in our 8th week.
And now that I'm done with putting so much emphasis on the obvious,
Here's the getdown on today.

Lessons today were quite excruciationg,
"Triple Science, Double maths in addition to Social Studies."
(as quoted from Sean Chong)
But for me, the real killers were,
E-math and Social Studies.
For those two periods I was the most lethargic,
Barely kept awake with the help of doodles and conversation.
On the other hand, I feel that Bio and Physics were the most engaging.
Also got my copy of the Physics and Chemistry 10-year series-s during recess.

After school I went to takeaway food from subway and kopitiam,
Was followed by Kok Foo and we met Ticko, Wei Sheng and Yu Fei on the way.
I didn't know what to get for my mom because I couldn't get through to her,
So, in the end I bought economic rice with random stuff added to it.
Meanwhile Ticko, Wei Sheng and Yu Fei were fooling around in popular,
We went home thereafter.

Oh and I got this from rock, paper, cynic,
It updates every weekday.
Check the site out when you have time,
There's more stuff like this there.
I own nothing.

Almost cried the first time I read that,
Not.
But it did give me insight on how insecure most of us are...

I guess this would be in line with the possible carebear hype I'm observing in our school,

All the more reason to get a huggable plush toy I guess.

I kinda feel bad about censoring that F*** word,
I mean, the artist probably put in a load of effort to make it look so rugged,
And that macro is like a giant spoiler.
Nevertheless this is a vulgarity free blog,
Well, not really, but it is, at least for this post.
Thanks for reading.

Ps: Can someone do something about the "The Kill" music video that keeps playing in my head?
It's really getting old, especially with "the shining" references, thanks.

Random edit:
I wanna learn Fencing!
I wanna be able to play 16 notes at a speed of 128 Bpm!
I wanna be better at drums, I'm deproving...
I want a new bag (preferably from flesh imp)
I wanna go out with friends.
I wanna brag about being to minimally play 5 instruments
I wanna do everything!
=/

Prettier and younger but not any better off.

2009-07-08T20:31:00.007+08:00

Yes, I didn't post about Tuesday,
That was more or less intentional,
Nothing much really happened but if you're interested,
We learnt that the Nafa tests would be held during PE lessons rather than after school,
I lost my PE pants somehow,
Which brings up this question,
Anyone brought home an extra pair on Tuesday?
I was told I won a yellow care bear with a rainbow cloud belly badge or something,
(On second thought, I think it was a Funshine bear, and yes, I actually looked it up)
I didn't take the care bear,
I waited for Kok Foo, who was having a Band meeting,
With Jordan, Darren and Ticko,
But in the end we went home without him anyway because it was taking too long.
And that's pretty much it,
See what I mean?

Now for what happened today.
I brought my bass to school as most of you know,
Spend the last night trying to stuff my jamming materials and my school books in.
And likewise, Kevin brought his guitar.
School was pretty much normal,
Haziq broke my Tagger Bag lock,
It wasn't that heavy duty after all I guess,
And we learnt, during Bio,
That the correct spelling for our heartbeat would be the following;
"Lub-Dub"

We tried to jam after school,
After Jordan, Kok Foo and the rest all left.
But unfortunately, we were denied a chance to use the dance studio,
And worse, we could only facilitate one guitar at a time in the classroom.
At least we had a bit of fun,
Only problem is that "bit" is like, infinitesimal,
I think we all felt like we wasted our time there.
However, to say that would not be completely true,
We did get to do a few rounds of "Hurricane Streets",
Played along to Kevin's mp3 through my speaker,
So it wasn't a complete waste in that sense,
Even if I didn't really improve and,
Kept mixing up the verse and the chorus bass parts.
Also did not go through "Grand Theft Autumn",
We only decided on it the day before so no one learnt their parts,
And after waking up this morning I started to have doubts about playing that song,
It may still sound weird after changing key so it might not have been a good choice,
It'll depend on how it goes.

Oh and I also finally had a look at Kevin's new Skullcandy headphones today,
Kinda happy that he's happy with it, especially since I told him to get a set,
If he wasn't happy then it would mean that my reccomendation was a crappy one,
Plus it was so expensive.
I'm considering getting a pair myself but maybe not the $70 version,
Because it doesn't come in my colors you see.

Anyway, about 3/4s through,
Kevin decided to jump about which resulted in his dropping of his guitar,
He opened up the back which is when we discovered that his guitar has tremolo arm capabilities,
(not "waa-waa" stick -_- )
And of a Floyd Rose locking system at that.
A few moments filled with technobabble later,
We decided that it was about time we went home,
Resulting in us packing up and left.

Zi Yu and Geraldine went home first while I followed Kevin to get his present,
And so, us two ended up like idiots at minitoons thinking of what to get,
We even called Fadil for help.
(But that was actually more of for fun)
In the end Kevin finally decided on something,
Me on the other hand decided to buy a pair of blue and black checkered shoelaces,
Why? I feel like cleaning up my pair of Nike Dunks and painting them or something,
Only this time I think I'd go with a darker color scheme,
To match with more clothes that are not blue, white nor black.
But now, come to think of it,
I'll just get a new pair of sneakers and put the laces in those.
After that the two of us went to Popular after that to get a couple of cards and paint markers,
This was followed by our parting and travel home.

2009-07-06T22:19:00.002+08:00

Yeah, In case you haven't noticed,
I didn't put up a post for Sunday.
Why? I spent all of my time on the post on the Spring Carnival,
By the time I was done, that only thing I could think of was sleeping.
And now that I'm down with that filler post,
(the post after this one, sorry, blogger doesn't support post-by-post archiving)
Here's my actual post.

Sunday.
Early morning I journeyed to Cck interchange,
Of which on the way I met Rian by coincidence,
And it turned out he was going to Changi too.
Anyway I went ahead of Rian, who had to wait for his friend,
And had my breakfast at Macdonald's.

Jordon came a while later and we took the long train ride to Tanah Merah.
When we got there we were like,
Confused on to where to find the shuttle bus that brings us to the Changi Exhibition Center,
So we called Mr Teo who asked us to take a cab which he would pay for,
That sounded really nice, but in the end,
We still managed to find the shuttle bus which saved Mr Teo a few dollars.

We got there, bought our tickets (no student price..),
Grabbed a couple of Formula Drift fans,
Walked around and then we met Rian,
And his friend who apparently had reached earlier than us.
Also, they carried the bad news that Mr Teo got a zero for the first qualifying round
Where you have to drift really nicely and avoid the cones in the track.
Sadly, he once again got a zero due to a minor accident resulting in a smashed bumper on his second round,
Which meant he did not make it into the top 16.

Other than watching the cars, there wasn't really much to do,
We got ourselves some food and drinks,
Walked around to the paddock to Mr Teo's pit,
But his car wasn't there cause he went to go and have it repaired.
And so the 4 of us sat by one side of the pit,
(it was more of a carpark actually)
In front of the trashed bumper,
Overhearing what everyone in front of us was saying.

Mr Teo really took quite a while to come back,
By then Rian and his friend left,
Me and Jordon didn't really talk to him.
We watched a few rounds of leading and chasing,
Before we had to leave, and we would have left earlier too,
If it hadn't been for the bad weather.
And because of the bad weather,
My going home was delayed and I couldn't visit my Grandma's.

Monday,
I dragged myself out of bed at about 8 am,
Left home after a while and then met up with Kok Foo and Ticko at segar Lrt station,
Walked to the basketball court, met up with Johnny and later Solomon.
Played basketball,
Went to eat at Fajar after that,
I bought a mcspicy but I couldn't stand it's spicyness,
Went home, had piano at about 7:45+,
Packed my bag and went to sleep.

The Kill - 30 seconds to mars

2009-07-06T20:38:00.010+08:00

And so I finally went berserk and decided post some lyrics of a really emo song...
Nah, not really,
I just started on the post for Monday and Sunday.
But I don't think I can finish it anytime soon,
So meanwhile, here's that song I mentioned.

The Kill
Songwriters: Leto, Jared;

What if I wanted to break
Laugh it all off in your face
What would you do?

What if I fell to the floor
Couldn't take all this anymore
What would you do, do, do?

Come break me down
Marry me, bury me
I am finished with you

What if I wanted to fight
Beg for the rest of my life
What would you do?

You say you wanted more
What are you waiting for?
I'm not running from you

Come break me down
Marry me, bury me
I am finished with you

Look in my eyes
You're killing me, killing me
All I wanted was you

I tried to be someone else
But nothing seemed to change
I know now, this is who I really am inside

Finally found myself
Fighting for a chance
I know now, this is who I really am

Come break me down
Marry me, bury me
I am finished with you, you, you

Look in my eyes
You're killing me, killing me
All I wanted was you

Come, break me down
Break me down
Break me down

What if I wanted to break?
What if I, what if I, what if I
Bury me, bury me

-------------------------------

This is who I really am.This is who I really am.This is who I really am.

This is who I really am.This is who I really am.This is who I really am.

This is who I really am.This is who I really am.

This is who I really am.This is who I really am.This is who I really am.This is who I really am.

This is who I really am.This is who I really am.

This is who I really am.This is who I really am.This is who I really am.

This is who I really am.This is who I really am.This is who I really am.This is who I really am.

This is who I really am.This is who I really am.This is who I really am.

This is who I really am.This is who I really am.This is who I really am.

This is who I really am.This is who I really am.

This is who I really am.This is who I really am.This is who I really am.This is who I really am.This is who I really am.This is who I really am.This is who I really am.This is who I really am.

This is who I really am.This is who I really am.This is who I really am

This is who I really am.This is who I really am.This is who I really am.

This is who I really am.This is who I really am..

Buns, buns, selling for one!

2009-07-05T00:13:00.002+08:00

Today was the big day;
It is no other than the long awaited Spring Carnival!
(note the double emphasis)
Got to school early to prepare for the performance later in the morning.
Anyway I did up my Band uniform and waited for the gloves to come,
While setting up my bass drum in the meanwhile.

Much... much later,
We were in the new indoor sports hall,
Doing round after round of our performance in our gallant attempt for perfection,
Oh and the break we got was really nice too.
When the actual thing came, we were all like 'BRING IT ON!!",
Too bad the party popper failed,
But that's what you get for 3 bucks worth.

After that I got my stuff and went over to my classes' "Bun Bonanza" booth

Where we didn't follow the shifts allocated to us,

Everyone helped out in a bit of everything.

The sales were like, horrible.

We had to keep increasing our discounts to try and clear our stock.
It was at first like, 1 dollar for 1 bun,
Followed by $1 for 2 buns,
Then $1 for 4 and $2 for 10,
Next, $2 for 20 buns,
$2 for 30 buns,
And for our final and desperate clearance price,
$2 for 40 buns.
See what I mean?
Even our efforts of making a combo deal with drinks from 3D's stall were fruitless.

Despite this shortcoming,
Today was still really enjoyable,
Especially when I had a shot at dunking Mr Suki (I messed it up though),
And 10 gos at archery plus one dead-center shot.
I wanted to visit the haunted house though,
But after queuing for an extremely long yet undisclosed amount of time,
I had to run down because of an attempt,
To try and do a last minute performance for the spring carnival.
But in the end it failed and there went my time spent queuing,
At least Kok Foo and his group (which I was supposed to be in) got to enjoy it, I guess...
T_T

Anyway, I went back to helping my class,
Only this time to help shift and keep stuff,
Later on when Kok Foo came out,
He messaged me to help him look for his bag at his classes' booth,
But when I got there, I realized it was gone,
And I tried to message and call him back but to no avail,
Then Jordon caught hold of me and got me to help him with the keeping of the tables and chairs.
So I helped out with the table and chairs while helping Kok Foo look for his bag.

Anyway, later on when me and Jordon decided we had enough of moving stuff,
We sat down nearby to the enterprise club.
And just then, Yu Fei was busy ordering 51 cans of drinks using the *ahem* tickets.
So I grabbed him and Yu Jie, we sat down and talked for a short while.
Also mentioned not being able to find KF and that he probably had already went home.
Then he said he wanted to deliver the drinks to the people from the youth changers thing,
So we went up with him and sat there to wait for them to finish their packing and or cleaning.
But soon enough we ourselves were sort of dragged in to help them too.
I helped with some trash-bag-holding and rubbish clearing.

After that I accompanied Ticko to the toliet (I have no Idea why though) and followed him down.
Found KF playing basket ball on the way to the Library,
Where the Youthchangers where having their meeting or something,
Followed Jordon to the B-Ball court.
Stayed on the sidelines while everyone else played.
Walked around for a bit and stumbled upon the ncc boys playing soccer.
When everyone was done with their stuff,
We all headed to Bukit Panjang Plaza,
But by different routes though.

Kian Wee, Darren, Jordon, Kok Foo, Hokiat and I took the Lrt while,
Yu Fei, Ju Jie, Ticko, Ivan, Nadd (who joined in later on)
And some other people whose names I forgot (I'm terribly sorry),
Walked to Bpp.
And so we met there,
Had our Dinner at Long John Silver.
We walked our separate ways, with Hokiat, Kok Foo, and I heading for the interchange,
The sky looked really beautiful at the time we were there, about 6pm++?
Anyway, I wanted to take a photo but.
Unfortunately, my phone's battery was dead.
On the way home (on the bus)
We talked for quite a bit,
Like what I missed out in the Haunted House,
Kiwi's attitude, and a whole bunch of stuff.
And I also saw for the first time, someone wearing the same,
Transformers Limited Edition t-shirt that I have,
But I guess it's to be expected,
The pieces were mostly sold out by the time I bought them
-_-

The end.
Thank you very much for reading my post.

42.7 percent of all statistics are made up on the spot

2009-07-03T22:08:00.008+08:00

Hey guys, guess what?
I didn't manage to post in the last few days,
And I have like, 3 unfinished drafts that I can't complete due to creativity issues,
Anyway at least I finally managed to get this one up,
Sorry for the long wait though.

Today,
I was rather close to being late today,
Arrived at about 2 minutes to 7:25,
Form Teacher Time, temperate taking,
Situational Writing, or in this case drawing.
FTT was followed by Geography,
Kinda talked a bit too much,
I blame Clement and Haziq though,
And through the lesson we were probably the main source of sound pollution.
Speaking of which I've been too hyper these few days,
Going "Bwahahaha", "WTH" or simply making noise.
I guess by now my classmates (possibly meaning you),
Think I'm crazy/annoying/irritating/dope/piece of crap/pie,
Or something, so yeah.. I'll try to tone down,
But it's hard since I'm easily influenced by people,
This sorry goes to the critics.

Moving on,
Next was A-maths,
And I really got excited about this;
We had our maths test and I actually knew how to do the questions!
Well, sort of I guess,
At least I'm improving,
Currently trying to meet the:

"Evan has demonstrated high mental capacity in mathematics and science"

Description from my report book,
Which reminds me, I haven't posted my results have I?
I'll get it done at the end of this post then.

A math was followed by recess,
I had this meatball noodle thing which I really didn't feel like eating,
But finished it anyway, but Kok Foo finished my meatballs for me.
Talked with the 2C guys for a while,
I went up to take my bag,
I came back down,
We talked some more.
And finally we all reported to the hall.

The hall's floor was in a really weird condition,
There was loads of little particles on the surface and it had this "dried saliva" feel to it.
If you asked me for why the hall suddenly became so sucky,
(not that it was in an extremely good condition before)
I think I can accurately tell you that they sanded off the laminate of the wooden floor,
And coated it with lacquer, however not throughly.
I would expect that they intended to further coat the floor with more layers of lacquer,
But could not as it would not have dried in time.

We had our short briefing and headed back to class,
Where we did our own work,
Composed my "Bun Advertisement Jingle" inspired by this video,
before settling our shifts,
Which was followed by our going down to set up our bun stall.
Which was followed by most of us slacking off,
Which was followed by us going to the staff room to call our parents,
And might I say, my mother just had to go on and on while I was using one of the staff phones,
So I'm sorry for indirectly holding the people behind me up,
(and I'm sorry for having a habit of saying sorry, I know it gets irritating.)

And so I waited for Darren and Kian Wee and Derrick to finish their Ncc stuff,
(no Jordan and KF, they had other stuff to do)
Next we went to Bpp,
We ate at the Kopitiam,
Visited mini toons and spent our time in the Library all the way till 4,
Time really flew while we were reading magazines,
Now imagine books, wow.
After, we went home.

Plus, roughly 4 hours later,
I started my preparations for tomorrow by shining my marching shoes.
End of story!
Now for my results, not that I want to brag...

Examination Results,
First Semester 2009

English-B4
Additional Mathematics-B3
Mathematics-A2
Biology-B3
Chemistry-A2
Physics-A1
Combined humanities-C5

Total: 476.6/700 (68.1%)
L1R4: 12
L1R5: 17

Class Position: 1/44
Level Position: 30/199

Not too good I guess,
Especially in terms of the percentage,
But I think the rest is relatively fine,
Or really good, depending on who you're asking.
I need to work harder...

Electrons exist in pairs,

2009-06-29T22:48:00.004+08:00

I have no idea what's my problem these few days,
Either I've been busy, lazy or just something else altogether,
In the end I decided to just continue posting.
I'll just update from the top down,
And I'll also include the links for the Thursday, Saturday and Sunday posts,
In one my future posts if I ever do complete them.
Besides, I think you're all bored of reading about my Wednesday,
Me watching transformers, eating at Sakae Sushi, blah blah blah.
I'm so sorry for not posting...

Moving on,
Well, today was the first day of school,
It was also the second day of the AYG torch relay.
There isn't much for me to say about it though,
I mean, you all were there right?

Anyway, I reached school at about 6:45 am or something,
Did up my uniform in the dance studio,
Got my (lopsided) bass drum out,
We went down to the sports hall,
Practiced a while before we had to go up to take our temperatures,
Came back down after that,
Ran through a few more rounds,
With some angry screaming in between before the real thing.
Didn't feel that it lived up to the hype though,
I guess all the action was at the indoor stadium.

Urrgh, I really have nothing much to post about in the first place,
And yes, I know all this is like, boring and stuff,
But I'm just trying to make a decent lengthed post,
So this would be a good place to stop reading,
But I'll just keep going on

We went back to the dance studio to get our belongings,
Spent a while (I think I'm over using that word) in the canteen
Where I overpaid for my vita soy,
The bunch of us tried to stay there as long as possible until we were chased back to class,
Our CD lesson wasn't bad I guess, it wasn't too long till our recess anyway.
Post-recess, we had social studies,
Followed by Chemistry where we learnt how to determine the empirical formula,
Of compounds via percentage and mass.
This was followed by English where we murdered the comprehension questions,
With our poor writing skills, bad time management and poor understanding
School ended here but there was still the Spring Carnival practice after that.

I had my lunch and went to the dance studio,
Fell in, waited for people,
Marched down to the sports hall where we did what we did best,
Or at least what we're supposed to do best...
This went on with breaks in between until about 5,
We were dismissed,
End of story.

And tomorrow my class is gonna get butchered during math,
Because according to Sean Chong,
"Confirm a lot of ppl nv touch"
So yeah.....
I guess I better go and sleep now, or something,
Soon.

I'll count to five

2009-06-25T01:00:00.005+08:00

Well, once again I have failed to finish a post on the day itself,
And not only for 1 day but 2,
I guess I'll just edit my half-written and posted post from Wednesday,
Do up another post for Thursday's events,
And publish them both today this Friday
Friday gets nothing because I pretty much did nothing,
Enjoy.

Wednesday
Basically, the only highlight I have for today (or rather, that day) was going out,
To watch Transformers 2 and having my dinner after that.
But seeing as leaving it at that would make for a absolutely boring post,
I think I should totally go hyper about it unnecessailry.
But then again it'd probably sound really stupid like...

Oh-em-Gee,
I watched Transformers 2 today,
Yes, today, the debut of it
The 24th of June 2009,
Bwhahahaha

Therefore, on second thought
I'll just simply elaborate on it.

So, as stated above,
I watched transformers at The Cathay with my dad,
I found the movie really great and stuff,
Awesome action sequences,
But I still feel the first movie was better,
Because the plot was rather deep and original,,

However this time was the first time that,
I actually liked a particular transformer; Sideswipe,
He's a chevy corvette, really nice silver tone, sleek dual arm blades,
And I really love how he skates around with his wheels for feet,
Makes his fight sequences flowy...
And out of impluse I feel like buying his toy,
But when I think about it in depth,
It's a horribly stupid idea, not only am I over aged,
The bots in the movie may be nice,
But the toys will probably be some horrible lookin piece of plastic,
With no elbow nor knee joints.

Anyway, to continue,
I had my dinner at Sakae Sushi in Wheelock place,
Finally could use our 15 dollar food voucher.
Finally, I ended my day by watching an apple ad,
Outside the apple store.
The ad was really creative if you ask me,
But it was really biased towards vista though,
Especially their portrayal of the OS as a guy in a power suit,
With horrible tastes, a lack of common sense and low self esteem.
(Lol, sounds like some people I know)

Yeah, we had a load of fun, what about you? Bet it wasn't worth your king time.

2009-06-23T00:02:00.001+08:00

Well, to say the least, I'm dumbfounded on what to write,
Anyway, there was the Spring Carnival rehearsal today...

~ My edit after 4 hours of slacking ~
Okay, I finally got myself to writing something sensible,
On to the body, yes, as mentioned above,
There was the Spring Carnival rehearsal today,
Which resulted in the rescheduling of my tuition,
SCr wasn't anything much of a hassle,
Just what you'd expect from being in an active band.

However, for some other people I know (Darren),
They were not fortunate enough to have something proper to do,
What do I mean?
They spent their time carrying tables and chairs,
Otherwise playing with their hand phones,
Sot this little paragraph goes out to them,
Bummer for you guys I guess.

The whole thing was short I guess,
Only about 4 hours long, but perhaps that's an understatement,
Anyway, after it ended I went for lunch,
And bought one of those fancy papers for father's day,
Yes, I know I'm a day late,
But we all can't be impeccable little angels can we?

Oh wait, I haven't commented on the "rock band wannabes" have I?
Here's what I have to say....
Absolutely nothing,
Why?
Here's some food for thought.
I currently feel that,
"should I truly do dislike someone,
Or something for an appropriate reason,
(and might I add, this currently applies to no one as of 22/6/09)
There is no need for any put downs or comments
Because if the forementioned person really is that bad,
Nature will take it's course,
I'll only have to watch you crash and burn."
But of course there's not much satisfaction in that,
So I'll just keep hating people the way I do,
Taking the "crash and burn" part as a bonus,

Besides that, you at least have to give them credit for trying,
And it seems kinda cruel to just shoot them down like that when they did nothing to you,
Plus, I'm horrible at insulting people,
I have to plan it out or something if not it'll sound horrible.
Oh and I went home to play drums after that to reaffirm myself that I'm better...
Didn't go well I guess, not my day.

I think I'm beginning to sound draggy,
So I'll just abruptly move on for my stuff tomorrow
Tomorrow there'll be math tuition for me,
So I need to quickly finish up my work later,
And I'll be needing to go for the Z2H alumni meeting 1 hour in advance,
So that we can practice doing registration work and later on,
Run through the games for the coming midway party.
Basically we'll have fun I guess.

By the way, I'm wondering how many of you have finished your holiday homework?
Not me for sure, currently planning to do some of it later on,
But still procrastinating by typing this post.
I brought this up because ticko asked me,
So I asked him if he wanted to organize a
"homework doing session" and
Later on I asked Li Cheng,
He said he wanted to copy or something,
And much later was asked by Haziq the same thing,
So I asked him about it and we decided we should have a
"Oh crap I didn't do my homework so lets chiong it together" session
So yeah...
Wanna do your homework now?

Hydrogen Oxide

2009-06-19T19:37:00.000+08:00

Oh great, missed another blog post,
Anyway here's to make up for it,
A Double-Day post.
I don't really have much to say nor talk about,
So don't mind the monologue

Thursday
Was 2C's class outing day,
Woke up at 10 and headed for causeway point,
Met Yan Zhou, Wendy and Sophia
Reached at about 11:15,
Found Kok Foo, Sean, Hokiat, Jonas and Leon
And waited for the rest, including Mr Lin,
To come, before we went up to Seol Garden.

There wasn't much variety of types of food,
But they did have quite a spread of meat,
I particularly enjoyed the "Teriyaki Chicken" strips,
But quickly tired of it,
Imagine eating only chicken for lunch.
Also had a bit of spaghetti and ice cream,
We were joined by Fadil, Taufiq and Nick De Silva,
Waited for them to finish their course of food,
Before we went to watch "Drag Me To Hell".
The movie was scary, like a typical horror movie,
But I felt it sucked mainly because I'm concentrating on it's plot,
Not it's scare factor.
After that,
We walked around for a bit before we all went home.

Friday
Well, nothing much happened,
Followed my Mom who had a doctor's appointment,
To Orchard.
Walked around,
Had lunch,
Walked around to Hmv and back,
Walked to borders, fetched home by my dad,
End.

The weaver of words, the fantasies of nerds..

2009-06-18T01:16:00.000+08:00

Okay, I don't really know what to post about,
But yet I still have an obligation to post so I'll just try and come up with something,
Hopefully it won't bore you too much yeah?

Tuesday
That day, we were supposed to go and have fun via playing music,
Well, to say the least,
I felt that yesterday (Tuesday) went horrible,
Yes, we finally did manage to organize the jam session but,
Ticko, Derrick, Kevin and I were unprepared, meaning that,
When we got there we couldn't play anything together properly.
The larger studio was booked,
Squeezed in a room that barely fit us....
And they no longer had a virtual jamming studio,
Which meant we couldn't play Guitar Hero.

Anyway, we ate at the mac next to the jamming studio,
After which we split up, while Kevin and I went to Tiong Bahru,
Where we walked in circles until we felt like going to Henderson industrial,
Got there but it was still closed till about 12 minutes later when Daniel came to unlock the door,
Messed about on the drums for a while before trying out the games for the Mid-Way party,
Finished our meeting after which everyone jammed, I think...
Tried a few rounds of the drums for "sway your head"
Before my father came and gave us a ride home.

Wednesday
Morning was spent playing bowling,
Met Kok Foo at choa chu kang interchange,
And later on, Ticko.
Only met Zi Yu at Cdans later on.
We played like, from 9-12 am,
It's been quite a long time since I bowled,
So I was kinda looking forward to this day,
Really worthwhile to me to wake up at 7am on a school holiday for it.

After that Kok Foo, Ticko and I
Went to the McDonald's at Bukit Batok where we met up with Yu Jie and Yu Fei,
Ate there, talked for quite a while before we went to the shopping center nearby,
We borrowed library books to pass the time before "Monsters Vs Aliens" started,
The movie was so-so I find, rather over hyped,
Also felt that it had a bad flow but that's just my opinion.
Went home after that.

Short

2009-06-16T02:23:00.000+08:00

Well, in the time that I slacked off,
My viewership plummeted like... something,
Anyway I thought I should at least post,
Even if it's super short and about a rather boring day.
To summarise:

I did my Chores
I organised the Jam Session tomorrow
I finished two Red Alert 3 campaigns
I had Piano lessons

And that's about everything that happened on 15/6/09

I confess, I messed up....

2009-06-14T22:20:00.000+08:00

I have been like, super lazy these few weeks,
But, I finally dragged myself to post about last week,
I'm sorry it's late but at least I'm doing it,
Rather than heading off to play red alert 3
You see, my time last week was spent at a Band day-camp,
Or whatever it was called,
So by the time I came home, I simply bathed and then plopped down,
In front of my computer and went brain dead until I had to go sleep,
This went on for about, the whole set of weekdays.

I would elaborate but you'd probably be bored to death,
Because it'd be like "Band, Band, Random Occurrence, Band",
And you'd be all "*yawn* this guy leads a damm boring life lar!"
Which, though may be slightly true (serious understatement),
Is not the perception of me that I want you to have,
So I'll just go on just for a bit.

I played the drumset for the Handover Ceremony,
Which makes me happy, but I'm hating myself for screwing up,
And I also wished we could have done something more elaborate,
Either way, that's more or less fine for me,
Because I know that things will always look easier with the benefit of hindsight.

Another thing would be that my bass drum carrier is really problematic,
I keep trying to adjust it to hold the bass drum straight,
But it's always too high or low on one side,
Also it keeps moving out of place so,
When I'm moving it goes the other way and so on and so forth.

Okay, moving on to more important business,
Rather than my meager existence (note my sarcasm),
I'm currently trying organize a jam session for this Tuesday,
Been talking about it with Kevin for quite a while now but
We can't find enough people,
Yet I'm itching to get a note out as a band (and also, I'm just plain bored),
So if you're interested, send a yell my way (or Kevin's),
I'm hoping to have it at Anaki Records because of it's spaciousness,
(Website states the main studio can hold 10)
But we're open to discussion,
So yeah.....

Now for today
Today,
Woke up at about 10am,
Had my Chemistry tuition,
We went through Acids and Bases
But I wasn't really able to pay much attention,
However, I did learn that Ph values can be calculated using,
"-Log(Concentration of H- Ions)"

Surfed the internet for a while after that,
Subsequently went for my second Guitar class
Which lasted an hour and a half,
Got myself a Pure Valina Ice-Blended from coffee bean,
Asked for marshmallows which I didn't find till I finished the drink,
There were like, only 6 rather small ones in there...
Went to my grandma's for dinner after that.
End of story.

Remember when we were kids, and could be best friends within like, 15 seconds of meeting each other?

2009-06-08T22:44:00.000+08:00

Okay, I got lazy and totally didn't blog last week.
(except for Monday's post)
And right now I don't really feel like finishing up,
The half written post regarding last week,
So I'll just jump to today.

Okay, basically,
I had band,
We had Physical Training when we had band,
My legs sorta gave up on me when we were doing crunches,
We did basic foot drills afterwards,
And I went for remedial halfway through,
When I was done with my remedial,
I went on a goose chase for my food,
I finally ate my food,
I then joined the band to go to the hall,
My bass drum carrier gave up on me and decided to slant to one side,
I made mistakes,
Me and Kevin have decided to try and rush to Henderson industrial park,
For the Z2H Alumni meeting,
And that pretty much sums up everything that happened today,
Not.

But I'm too lazy to give my whole two cents worth,
Not that anyone will really bother to read this anyway,
Anyway, please make do this this meager offering,
I'll finish up last week's posts when I have the time.

Sway your head, Move your feet

2009-05-31T22:31:00.000+08:00

Okay, I rushed the last two posts so they weren't too good,
Anyway I've finally got onto today.
And here are the links for the posts meant for the last two days,
-Friday 29/5/09
-Saturday 30/5/09

As a portion of you know,
Me and some other people went to a concert today,
But at 9am I had chemistry tuition,
Was kinda blank during the lesson,
Can't really remember the stuff I learnt now,
Empirical formula, stoichiometric ratio or something, molar ratio,
It's a mess, you wouldn't wanna be in my head,
By the way, did you know that the my right hemisphere of my brain is more dominant?
No? Well, neither did I until I read about it on a poster regarding Dyslexia yesterday.

Anyway, after tuition I installed Red Alert 3,
The game worked but it kept asking me to update it.
Changed and went out,
Didn't see anyone at bukit panjang lrt when I got there,
Also was kinda hungry because I didn't eat my lunch,
Headed to BPP but met Kevin on the way and turned around.
Talked a while before heading back to BPP and buying Macdonalds,
Didn't finish it because we had to get on the Lrt and later on, the Mrt,
By the time I finished it, the fries were kinda soggy, as were the nuggets.
But my coke was finished, courtesy of Kok Foo, Kevin and Syafiq.

We followed the directions of the "Map" and got to the SCH (that's what he wrote),
It was still kinda early so we headed to catch a bite,
Subway was closed so we went to the Anson Road Macdonalds instead,
Bought a cheesy chix as usual but this time they,
Included less cheese so it didn't taste as good,
Another factor was the fact that I had already eaten fast food earlier on.

Headed back to SCH when we were done,
By then it was like, crowded as opposed to the ghost town it was before.
Entered the concert hall and we sat in one of the higher rows.
I pretty much enjoyed the whole thing I guess,
Anyway, after that the bunch of us went to lau par sat,
Originally it was a Faux suggestion by Syafiq but Mr Lim took it seriously.
So we had our dinners where most of us ate "ban mian".
Found it rather hard to eat because of our close proximity to each other,
And we kept bombarding each other with the soup,
That splashes off the noodles when you drop them.

We all happily finished our meals and walked,
To a nearby MRT station where we went home,
But not before I was drafted to help with marking the fields, 0.o
Always though I was very extra in these things,
Okay, End of story.

Now for personal Insights,
I find that sometimes people don't hear me when I say
"Hi", "Bye" or "Thanks" or any other basic manners,
So, I'd just want to let you know that even if you don't hear me say any of these,
I probably did or would have,
It's just that sometimes I don't articulate myself clearly,
Forgot or simply reacted too slowly to respond.

I'm also and hooked on this other song that I heard Rec13 play,
I didn't know the name before but thanks to that Guitar Hero : World Tour,
Session last Friday, I now know that it's
"Rooftops" by "Lost prophets",
It's great song for me, and maybe also you,
It talks about those times where you feel like screaming all your troubles out.
And simply knowing the title of it makes me happy,
Because I know that it won't become;
"That awesome song whose name I dunno,
And I'm gonna be so sad because I'll probably,
Never hear it again and have no means to do so."

That is all from this blogger today.

Shalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalala

2009-05-30T21:20:00.000+08:00

I've been lazy the past few days,
So, right now I'm trying to catch up on the daily posts I missed out on.
(As said in the previous post, I changed the post date but this is still written on 31/5/09)

Saturday
Had drum lessons with the relief teacher,
He's also the same teacher who will be taking over at the end of June,
But right now I also don't feel so keen to continue learning drums where I do,
Don't really like how often we change teachers..

Had the final class of DAS,
Finished up the goodbye cards I didn't complete,
Because I skipped the class last week.
Ate 4 slices of pizza, 2 cups of coke,
And played this card game called "bang!" or something.

Usual church routine but didn't really have much of a cell meeting,
We played Uno and tic tac toe instead,
Joined my parents on the third floor and then went out for ice cream.
Ate Ben and Jerry's at Dempsey,
I wanted a hot fudge sundae but they suggested I try the fudge core sundae,
More or less the same if you ask me,
But I still enjoyed it eitherway.

Standing on the rooftops, everybody scream your hearts out.

2009-05-29T00:21:00.074+08:00

I'm typing this on 31 may, 12:22 am,
Even though according to blogger this was posted on the 29th.
Just to let you know.

"Today" was, in short, complete.
Even though it was the last day of school,
There wasn't a lot of hype about it,
Possibly due to the fact that we'll be having remedials during our "Holiday",
If you look at it one way, it's equalivent to having normal lessons,
This is further hardened by the requirement,
For us to wear our proper school uniforms.

I followed Derrick and Darren (rhymes Lol),
And Kok Foo to Darren's house to collect our games,
Played around with Darren's desktop and laptop,
Also gave Darren our opinions and views,
On what he was gonna wear to Mr Teo's house,
Like fashion police or something.

Following our cup of crappa,
We left for Choa Chu Kang interchange,
Happened to see Mr Kumar, Mr Lin and Mr Firdaus,
When we were walking from the Bus Stop.
Said "hi" but it was still really awkward...
Anyway we met some of the guys from Darren's class,
Don't know your names though, sorry.
Thereafter went to the bus interchange,
Minus Darren, we took 307 but not before we called Fadil for directions.
For a while we couldn't contact him,
Because he kept hanging up and thus thought we were ditched,
Turned out that his phone had problems when we managed to get through.

Taufiq and De Silva were there before us
"chionging" Guitar Hero,
I more or less love that game to death,
Well, not literally though.
Playing the drums for it was kinda hard,
But not "hard" hard, The snare (or red pad, whatever),
Was kinda dysfunctional which totally pulled down our accuracy rate.
Still prefer an actual drumset.

Tried the guitar, felt like an idiot when I picked it up,
Expected it to be heavier like a normal guitar which, obviously, it's not.
Whammys are harder to execute through the whammy bar than the joystick,
So we used them less often but it was still heck fun,
We all fared rather well I find.
I think we were expecting doing vocals to be hard or something,
None of us really volunteered but I did have a go,
Wasn't embarrassing like karaoke especially since the game didn't amplify voices.

(Cont. 31/5/09)

Ate some of the pasta Fadil and De Silva made,
Both were nice but they tasted nicer when they were mixed together.
Much later on when we got bored we finally left,
Took a bus to CCK,
Parted with Kok Foo and happened to meet people from 3D,
Had pizza hut with them and came home rather late.
(Sorry for the long winded-ness)

Shirts and suits

2009-05-28T22:24:00.005+08:00

Came rather late to school today,
As per normal,
Forgot to bring my Biology Practical book,
Need to hand it in tomorrow.
Mr Lim also started on Air Pressure,
He did some demostrations involving a balloon and a bottle,
And cupped hands.
We had our Chemistry quiz, I think I cleared it relatively well,

After school, Kok Foo, Johnny, Jonas, Hanqi and Solomon,
Went to play Basketball with people from Qin Lin and Everlyn's church,
Good game, But as usual, I sucked,
Only scored once, without interference, after we had ended the game,
Before we left.

And as always, I shall lengthen the post with lyrics.
And today's song is also,
The common song for this season of Z2H.

Sway Your Head
by We Shot The Moon

Sway your head
Move your feet
Wake yourself from the sleep
If there's a day, there's a way
You can get yourself there
Golden smile, you got style
That they can't take away

Scream and shout, get it out
Before it swallows you
No surprise in these times
How it really gets through
All the walks and the thoughts
But can you break through?

You're alive
So alive
Now c'mon

You gotta pull yourself back together
Give it one more shot
It's now or never
With the new day falling for you
You gotta believe
(Woah)

Build a plan, yes you can
You've got nothing to lose
Look around, up and down
What are you gonna choose?
Can you see the sunrise
That came up for you?

You're alive
So alive
Now c'mon

You gotta pull yourself back together
Give it one more shot
It's now or never
With the new day calling for you
You gotta believe
(Woah)

You gotta pull yourself, back in the water
Take in one deep breath
You're getting closer
After all you've talked and seen
You gotta believe
(Woah)

I think it's coming back
I think it's coming back
I think it's coming back to me
(X2)

Now I, I feel I'm getting better
Now I, my world is getting better

You gotta pull yourself back together
Give it one more shot
It's now or never
With the new day falling for you
You gotta believe
(Woah)

You gotta pull yourself, back in the water
Take in one deep breath
You're getting closer
After all you've talked and seen
You gotta believe
(Woah)

Move your feet

2009-05-27T22:59:00.001+08:00

Well, I’ve been M.I.A. from posting for quite a while now,
Not exactly sure how long though,
It should be quite obvious if you look through the archives.
Anyway, I’ve been rather busy.
To save my time,
I shall simply put the events of both days into one super long post,
Enjoy.

Yesterday,
I was occupied by the Alumni meeting which lasted till 10pm,
I feel happy even though I had to stay so late,
Which should be the case, yesterday was our {off} day.
Most of the session, for me,
Was spent watching one of the two bands practice.
Really enjoyed watching Rec13.

After that we went into one of the rooms to do our own stuff,
Unfortunately I was the only one there,
As in "the only secondary school student" there.
Bryan was really nice to get the others,
To play something we could all participate in, Pictionary,
Not that he'll ever read this though.
Oh and they showed off their hair that was past their lips and,
Went on to make note that I'm from secondary school and,
Thus could not do that "eating own hair" thingy.
Other than that, they’re incredibly friendly.

After a while we got bored,
This resulted in us playing wacko,
Except we used the names of the 1st generation Pokémon,
Followed by different fruits.
By then my stomach was kind of hurting because I didn't eat much,
Either way I persevered, but I think it made me a bit "blur" during the game.

We got bored again,
So we decided to change to playing Taboo,
I suck at it so there's no need to mention much,
You just need to know that I got owned,
I'm horrible at articulating myself.
Halfway through, they decided to open up the bags of potato chips,
Thereby, and more or less I am totally exaggerating, saving me.

At the end of the whole thing,
We had a meeting to finish it off,
Keith (Z2H) announced that he was,
Going off to National Service on the 4th of June.
And this meant he had to get a replacement for his position of "President",
Of which the two candidates are Kok Leong and Reuben.
Went home after that via car.

Today,
Nothing much really,
Lessons were a little noisier than usual I found,
Felt lethargic due to sleeping at 12 last night.
Also did a sonic test with the guys on my corner of the world,
To see to what degree we were audible to the people around us.
Apparently we are really loud mouthed,
And almost everything obnoxious we say can be heard,
Because of this, I would like to apologise for that.

Wanted to go to Fadil’s house after school to play Guitar Hero,
Sadly, we were turned down because his dad was home.
Helped Justin who didn’t bring his phone to tell De Silva about it.
Went to Bukit Panjang Plaza to find my mom so she could fetch me home,
Adjusted my spectacles before we left,
Went home, changed, and headed for Orchard to curb my boredom.
Didn’t buy anything there,
Neither did I see anything worth buying at this point,
But I did do a lot of walking,
Far East Plaza to Taka to Wisma to Taka to Wisma to Paragon,
Go figure.

Takashimaya was having some performances,
Apparently in conjunction of the Singapore Arts Festival,
There was this Monkey skit where there was this woman,
And a robotic monkey controlled by an,
“inconspicuous” operator who was hidden in the crowd.
Also caught sight of some random symphonic band doing warm-ups.
Went home at around 7:30 after everything.

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I’m Kinda looking forward to playing basketball with Kok Foo tomorrow,
But we’ll playing with friends of Qin Lin so it might be awnkward.
I’m also really addicted to the new common song for this season of Z2H,
“Sway Your Head” by “We Shot The Moon”
And I assume you’ve seen me listen to it via my personal message on Msn,
Like, 6 times plus I think?

No doubt this all will end horribly, but yet we shall still rejoice, the hypocrites we are

2009-05-24T02:46:00.000+08:00

Today was fun.
But that first line didn't sound exciting didn't it?
Well, ignore that 5 cents of mine,
I don't need to announce that I'm a pessimist,
Yet I just did.

Anyway,
Had drum lessons, as usual,
Same usual things as always,
Justin (drum teacher) wasn't supposed to come,
But the relief teacher couldn't make it so he took over,
Despite the fact he has to reach the airport at 3,
When his lessons end at 2 or something.
Played two-handed 16-notes if you were interested.
Your probably weren't.

Skipped DAS lessons with a heavy heart,
Well, not that heavy, kinda bored with it.
Instead, I went to "The Cathay", my first time,
Super posh to me,
Don't laugh because it really is nice with all the stores.
Got me a Cream-Blended Vanilla from Starbucks,
While waiting for the rest to come,
When sitting around, noticed that Spin the bottle has anniversary discounts,
Tempting to say the least.
Caught "Night at The Museum", which was quite okay I guess,
(Ignore the implied pun, this has nothing to do with my glasses),
But still not as funny as the first one.
Also getting annoyed with the Jonas Brothers, same as Cephas,
A classic iteration of a Disney cash-cow,
And yes, they made an appearance.

Went back to church after that,
Was like, super early,
Ate some black carrot cake,
Rushed the seats and all that jazz.
Today's service was super-hyped,
Which is the way I like it.

Saw Everlyn and Hui Wen on the way to Bukit Panjang,
Said hi but nothing else.
Went to McDonald's to have my dinner,
While having a chat with Kok Foo, with sms of course.
Finished eating, went home.

Watched the rerun for the last few episodes of fate/stay night,
Courtesy of my renewed subscription of animax.
King Arthur was depicted as a girl,
Which was kinda thought provoking or something.
Followed up the show with Tears to Tiara,
Couldn't concentrate to the show, no-thanks to Fadil.
But then again, maybe it was worth it,
The news he delivered was rather comic.

Cheese graters line the streets, and I'm just a self-deluded person

2009-05-22T22:36:00.005+08:00

Sorry I didn't post yesterday,
Spent too much time engrossed in a book,
By the time I snapped out, it was rather late,
So I didn't update, also starting to get lazy about these things.

Thursday
Won't really go in detail,
Like what I once said,
Almost everyday is the same,
If I did elaborate,
It would be simply repeating previous posts.
But if you really wanna read about Thursday,
Which I highly doubt,
Feel free to read a archived post,
It'l be pretty much the same except for the following that I am going to add on.
Basically I did horribly for Geography, 27 out of 50.
I assume that some of you are happy while reading this.
Wished Mrs Siti a belated birthday eitherway.

Friday
Firstly, we brought our red files for nothing,
But some people and I will still have to sadly bring them again on Monday.
My social studies seemed rather horrible,
14 out of a possible 25, giving me a total of 55 for my humans.
Had to change my place during English because I was talking too much,
Yeah, deserved it.
Got back our results, 68.3 (for English in case you couldn't make a link)
It's okay-okay but still not what I wanted.
Aimed for 5 As but so far only 3,
Right now, keeping my expectations down to 4 As,
Hopefully my A math will bring me that final A,
But I'm not too confident.

Marching in Band today was...
Interesting to say the least.
I still pretty much suck though.

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Even though I didn't really get the marks I wanted,
I'm still happy with the results,
particularly section C of my Biology paper,
which I thought was gone-case because of using a wrong indicator,
but it wasn't taken into account.
As well as the diagram drawing in Physics,
Which I absent-mindedly forgot to bring a ruler and protractor for,
Forcing me to estimate the angle according to the figure shown.
And I also want to thank Mr Kang for helping me borrow a ruler.

Skyway Avenue goes Screamo!

2009-05-20T21:02:00.004+08:00

Tuesday
Like what the title says,
Anyway, we got back our physics papers yesterday right?
Didn't do too badly, (don't hate me please),
Topped the class.

Went home after school,
And got this horrible haircut that I have right now.
(For your information, I had absolutely no intention of looking like this,
So to make my life easier, please imagine me with better hair,
Thank you.)
Bathed, changed, went out again.

Reached Tiong Bahru at about 6:15,
Walked around looking at stuff,
Bought a drink from coffee bean then went off to Henderson industrial.
Didn't know that I had to take bus 5 at that time,
So I took some other random bus,
Dropped off nearer to my destination,
Then walked.
By the time I arrived it was like, 7:45 or something.

Watched them play a whole bunch of songs like,
Skyway Avenue (screamo, as described by them)
Lights and Sounds, Dance, Dance (only the intro)
Imitation, And two other songs that sound awesome whose title remains unknown to me.
The Alumni meeting was attended by less people this time,
Basically we planned for alumni outings and stuff.
Some random stuff mentioned would include "Avenged Sevenfold on ice",
more skydiving, Fico and gaming.

I was the only person in secondary school there,
And because of that, they accused me of being young thus making them feel old.
Well, they make me feel young so we're even.

Wednesday
Once again, nothing much happened,
Got our Chemistry results,
I think my paper was kinda marked wrongly,
But I'm not very sure of that.

Lent Haziq my hoodie to surprise Mrs Loe, again.
More or less failed as always though.
Had band after school,
Only 6 people in the beginning,
Ended with 5.
Also, my sense of rhythm went.. totally off.
Went home with Kok Foo after that.

Gonna have piano lessons tomorrow,
Not looking forward to it,
I estimate that my hair will take about 19 days to grow back to it's normal volume,
Provided it grows at a rate of 0.1 cm per day.
Plus, I really need to brush up on my posting skills,
Sorry about the sucky post(s)

Give me a pen and call me Mr. Benzene, but don't let the doctor in, I wanna let off steam.

2009-05-18T17:43:00.008+08:00

Nothing much today,
Same boring life.
Li Cheng came to my house at like, 9 am,
After he like, forced me to let him come.
Ate order-in Macdonald's,
Played some Xbox, showed him Dragonica,
Followed by table tennis, the latter which I seriously suck at,
As do I at all sports.

Booked the tennis court for 12 but it started raining,
It went on for about 15 minutes then we went down,
While it was still drizzling, played tennis,
Practically ruined any chance of a proper game with my horrible skills,
However I think I'd be much better at baseball,
Or softball as the case may be.

I'm sort of doing the online assignments but,
I'm completely distracted by all my desktop applications and bookmarks,
Also finding the discussion threads disturbing,
Especially when it seems like only a small fraction of,
The school's population bothered to voice out there.

Edit: Finally finished all the assignments, well, most of them anyway,
The discussions I didn't participate in.
Had a crash course during my math tuition and even so,
I only did 3 questions of the coordinate geometry quiz

Erm, yeah, it just occurred to me that there's school tomorrow,
So we'll be getting back our first few papers (obviously).
Hope mine doesn't come back drenched in red,
And on second thought, I retract that statement and apply it to everyone I know,
Good luck.

"If you know me you know how uncool I am. I stutter, wear bad clothes, make bad jokes, make conversation uncomfortable, the list goes on. Thank you for making me feel okay."
-Peter Wentz

Edit2: Great, what happened was that I didn't do my English assignment 2,
Because I could not find the second video whose link was non-visible,
That is, until Jonas pointed it out to Kok Foo who pointed it out to me.
But apparently the test ends at 5pm,
My defense on this situation would be that the link,
For the second video could not be clearly seen.

5+5=2x5

2009-05-18T01:55:00.000+08:00

Yeah, sorry I updated so late,
Anyway, today (or yesterday) I basically didn't do,
Anything that might interest you all.
Nevertheless I'll just go on about it.

Went to my Grandma's,
Left my computer on to finish downloading Dragonica.
Came home, finally finished downloading the setup,
Tried clicking it but nothing happened.
Played bass for a while then the setup screen finally popped out.
Finished setup and started playing.
It's like super laggy I tell you,
Not sure if it's my computer or their servers.
Quite an okay game I suppose,
But I don't think I'll be or would want to be,
Hooked at this point for obvious reasons.

After that I went to my Grandma's (Mother's side)
Had dinner, then went grocery shopping.
Did that then watched star trek,
I enjoyed the show,
Think my inner child did too.
Nice how they reasoned that a paradox,
Couldn't happen because they were now in an alternate reality.
It's like reading the mind of someone who's reading yours,
And it'l be all " I know that you know that I know that you......" and so on.

I'm so sad my Xbox is dead.
Okay maybe it does work but the hard disk's corrupted,
So there goes my saves and stuff,
If I want to play my Xbox again I'd need to start over,
As well as spend money buying a new hard disk.

Also, I'd like to rant how low the Mrt or Lrt handles are,
It's like they purposely positioned them,
Such that I'd smack into them whenever I boarded or exited the train.
Okay, maybe it's also partly my fault for not looking where I go,
Eitherway, I don't like it.

As if we needed a title, this post will be nothing.

2009-05-17T00:14:00.001+08:00

Didn't do much today,
Finished Miracle during drum lessons,
I almost have the syncopation down,

Currently trying to download Dragonica,
If manage to be patient and actually finish downloading it,
It'l be a heck in a long time since I played an mmorpg.
Also considering getting the Windows 7 beta,
Reviews say it's much faster than vista,
But it also seems complicated to install though.

Anyway, enjoy your long weekend.

Hmm.. Not pink enough, needs more.

2009-05-15T23:09:00.008+08:00

Didn't really do much today.
Had piano lesson in the morning,
Went out for lunch with my grandparents after that.
We went to Pizza Hut at Lot 1,
Instead of Crystal Jade at Orchard due to time constraints.
My cousin is like seriously.. immature.
Sigh.

Went to Darren's house after that.
Helped with some lightings,
Played Red Alert 3.
Went to buy Macdonald's before going home,
The pink cup doesn't look that pink,
I would describe it more of transparent,
Still a rather nice coke glass though.

Oh and I also spoilt my phone.. AGAIN
Calling is screwed so please restrict yourself to sms-ing me.
Any inconvenience is regretted,
And so is the dropping of my phone...

Edit: I find this post too short to be appropriate so
I'm just gonna add in the lyrics for random Fall Out Boy songs.

"The Take Over, The Breaks Over"- as written in the album cover
Fall Out Boy

Baby seasons change but people don't
And I'll always be waiting in the back room.
I'm boring but overcompensate with
Headlines and flash photography.
Don't pretend you ever forgot about me.
Wouldn't you rather be a widow than a divorcee?
Style your wake for fashion magazines.
We don't fight fair.
They say your head can be a prison.
Then these are just conjugal visits.
People will dissect us till
This doesn't mean a thing anymore.
We do it in the dark with smiles on our faces.
We're dropped and well concealed in secret places
We don't fight fair.

I'm Like A Lawyer with the Way I'm Always Trying to Get You Off
Otherwise (Me + You)
Fall Out Boy

Last year's wishes
Are this year's apologies
Every last time I come home
I take my last chance
To burn a bridge or two
I only keep myself this sick in the head
Cause I know how the words get you off
We're the new face of failure
Prettier and younger but not any better off
Bullet proof loneliness
At best, At best
Me and you
Setting in a honeymoon
If I woke up next to you
Setting in a honeymoon
Collect the bad habits
That you couldn't bare to keep
Out of the woods but I love
A tree I used to lay beneath
Kissed teeth stained red
From a sour bottle baby girl
With eyes the size of baby worlds
The best way
To make it through
With hearts and wrists intact
Is to realize
Two out of three ain't bad
Ain't bad

The Naivete Breakaway

MOMMA

The key that no longer fits

I know sorry's not enough...

New Year!

New Skin!

One year, six months

Didn't choose this role, but I'll make it sincere. woof?

Please? I asked nicely

ALAYH

Semper Fi

Good to go but goin nowhere fast, Saturday, in the wake of

butterflies and hurricanes

The Decadence effect.

The Takedown, The world, and my guitar.

The kill.

My life with...

December, remember

Fast Times at Barrington high

The day where I can say, "there's no tomorrow".

The truth hurts worse than anything.

And yet somehow I always feel so lonely.

You need him and I'm nothing but an accident.

From now on we are enemies.

I'm jealous of anyone you talk to.

To me, your ends are my means for my ends. And I'm sorry for it.

Only until then.

Here we go again.

I'm glad my standard of English isn't that bad.

01010100 01101111 01100100 01100001 01111001, Today, Honjitsu, Simera, Sodien.

A to Z, Alpha to Omega

Unos Duos Thres Quatros five six seven eight.

Mixed emotions, and thoughts.

Same day, 2 years ago. Taken forgranted.

Mary's alive in the bright New York sky.

It's only Califrangilisticexpialidocious without you.

I really don't know what I want from you anymore

You're now just a line in a song....

Inspired by Google Wave

You'll like me better when I'm sad.

Check yes Juliet, here's the problem. I can't sing for nuts....

I mourn for every friend I've ever forgotten

One night can change it all

Am I more than you bargained for yet?

Mutual Ignorance is decadence

Your number one with a bullet, Cock and load.

I am a knight of the Coffee Table. One Ice Milo please!

As things come to pass, for all that we've done.

Comment moderation and opinion.

Anything that can go wrong likely will

When these two collide, it's no coincidence

But I'm a creep, a weirdo, not meant to be here, for all that's said and done,

So I can be someone new

The times when I was Lost and Depressed from the awful truth...

A night's ender, remember.

Stoichiometry

This is my heart, stomping into this forsaken song

Chicka pow wow boom boom boom

Listening to fall out boy helps with literature.

It's a RED HOT summer.

Someone has his WHAMMY BAR! =D

I'm slipping into the lava..

CCAs will be resuming shortly

Paramore songs make me feel like I'm having a holiday, Fall Out Boy songs make me feel like I know what I'm doing....

Brick walls, hard falls.

Prettier and younger but not any better off.

The Kill - 30 seconds to mars

Buns, buns, selling for one!

42.7 percent of all statistics are made up on the spot

Electrons exist in pairs,

I'll count to five

Yeah, we had a **** load of fun, what about you? Bet it wasn't worth your ****king time.

Hydrogen Oxide

The weaver of words, the fantasies of nerds..

Short

I confess, I messed up....

Remember when we were kids, and could be best friends within like, 15 seconds of meeting each other?

Sway your head, Move your feet

Shalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalala

Standing on the rooftops, everybody scream your hearts out.

Yeah, we had a load of fun, what about you? Bet it wasn't worth your king time.